Hey guys, here to update... ive been feeling sick for the past few months actually, when i say sick, i mean i am literrally sick! no joke at all... well to others i may seem ok cause tat is what i want them to think cause i dun really like when my friends are worried about me... really, so pls do not worry, i understand your just showing ur care and concern, and i really2 appreciate it alot! So as i was saying, i was sick... The NUH called me up for an appointment, stating tat i have an abnormal blood result, so i did go back to NUH to go for another test.... 2 weeks later the same abnormal blood result.... i asked how abnormal can it be?? and even the doctor do not knw how to explain... so i was refered to TTSH CDC, when i heard that they are transferring me to CDC i get afraid... because its a place where people go for HIV treatment.... TONNES of question running through my mind, asking my self if its possible that i am a HIV positive carrier... and dang i am sooooooo afraid and panic, i have no one to turn to now! gosh... so much of a drama!

ok... last week i went to CDC 1 for the appointment.... str8 at the doctor face i asked, AM I A HIV CARRIER!.... then the doctor say.... "NONSENSE" lol.. i was like huh?? wat do u mean by nonsence, then the doctor reply that i am not a HIV carrier, there's no HIV AB viruses found in my blood... then i was like "PHEW" THANK GOD!.... soo... at cdc.... we proceed for another blood test.... then the result reveal.....

hmmm seriously, when the doctor approach me, he doesnt have any smile on his face... and i sense something is not right... but what is it??

"Indeed, i have a bad news for you... Not tat you are having a HIV, but you have a blood disorder". Doctor says...

i replied... "Is it tat bad"...

"oh yes it is, this blood disorder case is very rare and there's no cure for it... but with treatment you can control ur blood cell and cd4..."

"oh ok..." i thought tat is all..... then the doctor says...

"Judging from your NS salary, i dun think you can afford the treatment cause its $3500 per month... and am sorry to say but without treatment, you only have 5 to 8 years of lifespan, with treatment, you may have 8 to 14 years if lifespan..."

well tears start to flow out of my cheek, i cant believe tat i only have 8 years of lifespan cause i cant afford the treatment... but i have to be strong... think positive... and move on.... within next 2 years who knws i find a better job and can afford the treatment... god knows.... so yea indeed ive revealed it.... but pls do not worry for me... and don worry cause it cannot infect others... its only in me... so yea....

signing off... afad...