No matter how sweet you are, Never ever sweet talk to a person who are still single when you know that you are already attached. You are just transmitting a Wrong signal or even worst, giving hope to the single party.

Giving a wrong signal is the worst thing tat you can ever do. you're just simply cheating on the other party feeling. So Dont attempt to sweet talk when u knw that you're already attached.

anyway, today was indeed a short day for me, woke up around 1.15pm, rushed down to North View so tat i can test the aircraft for tmr... and then clean up the range and head back home... reach home around 6+, use the comp, watch some porn and then nw am on my bed typing out this post... short day indeed...hehe....

and finally i keep in touch with huzainie!! gosh i mish him LOADS! going out with him soon! dang, am looking forward! seriously! lol...

and oh ya! sumone just confronted me that am dirty! i mean in religious way... doesnt mean am gay i cant put my feet at the place of worship! i am a human too u knw and also i do believe in god and i do practice islam... wat RIGHTS do u have to say tat i am dirty??? will u be the one who judge me if i go to heaven or hell?? will u be the one who weight my sins, do u knw how much sins i carry?? NO! ur not! its between me and god.... so to those people who always say being gay is a sins and stuff, this is wat am gonna say to you.... Buzz off.... u dun have the right to judge me! and only god knws my sins and he is the only one who will judge me!

anyway... am feeling soooo shag... sry.. lethargic... lol....sleeping soon...i hope...

signing off
AyiE

Hi
intro?
seek?
flex? top? btm?

Sounds familiar?

This are the common message you will get if you are chatting on the famous IRC! indeed, some people are still using IRC to get socialised, the example of some people is me!

in the late 1990, yes... IRC was indeed a famous chat software that enable people with internet access to communicate.... Back then, MSN messenger like wat we are using nowadays wasnt event created. IRC stand for Internet Relay Chat. Unlike MSN or Yahoo messenger, u will be only chatting with the people who you knw cause u will be ask to add the individual email address BUT not with IRC. For those of you who have been chatting on alamak.com, it is actually the same except tat for alamak, you have to go to the website to chat. With IRC, u can simply chat by opening up the software. Its tat simple, No need for you to enter the website name, wait for it to reload/refresh and stuff... you just key in your nick name and connect to a server (Singapore server is galaxy.net) and voila, your online.

Like alamak, IRC have various channel... as for me, i always go for a gay channel. They are #sgboy or #gam. But for those who are str8 people, this are some of the famous channel that people would normally go (i do go to this channel fyi) #Melayu #melayu20+ #singaporeteen and #singaporechat.

ANYWAY, the purpose of blogging today is NOT about introducing on IRC but is about HOW ppl intro or start conversation with you...

Like what i wrote in the beginning, the common way people will address you on irc is (Hi, intro, seek, flex top btm?)[On Typical Gay chn tat is :D] . To me, its kinda rude to start up by asking Personal details at first chat. i wud prefer people who literally chat and ask details later. Example, Hey dude wassup, am bored mind chatting for awhile... hmm you have any idea where to get a cheap game for PSP? anyway Jeff here, 19 this year.. seeking friends cause life is bored... what about ya?.....

sumhow i feel welcome when people start conversation like the example stated above. Cause its simply show tat they are interested in chatting with you, UNLESS what they seek is a very str8 forward things. example SEX, which is common in gay channel..Here are some example then....

[Gordi] Hi.
[AyiEmly] Hey Wassup.
[Gordi] Intro?
[AyiEmly] Sure, y not... 19 170 58mly here.. u?
[Gordi] 21 175 60 chn.... where u stay? seek?
[AyiEmly] hmmm... cck here, west area... friends or more... :D
[Gordi] Oh, i seek fun.. u top flex or btm?

=========================

Yea there you go.. .an example of str8forward ppl who just enter the chat room cause they are horny...

Although singapore is a multi racial country and so much for Racial Harmony, there are still racism people here... No offence to any races or wat but Most chinese chatters prefered to chat with the same race. What i call them is HOMORACEST. and some, might be rude. When they start finding out tat the chatters are mly or other race, example (Intro: 19 170 58 MLY) they will simply IGNORE you... and sum would also say either, Sry not into malay or sry seek chn only. How do u feel when u read tat? first word will appear in your mind will be RACIST!. LOL.... i just dun understand, is like, u must be this race to be my friend... stupid as it sound but its happening on irc... and tat apply to those who seek friends/ltr or sex...

If you are talking about friends/chat or ltr, i dun see the need to have it with the same race, cause for this category everyone is the same. Some ppl say "its just preferences" but i say its bullshit. UNLESS your talking about sex which i agree tat there is preferences... but the only preferences is tat most chn or non malay people is uncut and the malay people is cut (if u knw what i mean) other then that, every thing is the same! dun u think so???

so yea... anyway the word HOMORACEST doesnt even exist in dictionary.. lol.. it just the word i describe sumone who interested in the same race, like HOMOSEXUAL, sumone who interested in the same sex.

anyway i just realised its a bloody long post.. hahaz guess have to stop here.... cya

signing off
AyiE

Having sex with the same gender is already weird enough but wat if u have sex with the same gender who also have the same sex prefrences.... meaning a top having sex with a top... or worst, a btm having sex with a btm...its just not right.. lol....

anyway this are some of the common mistakes tat ppl do in sex..

1. Not switching off phone or put it in silent mode. Its kinda irritating to hear ur phone ringing over and over again while having sex...

2. Forgotten ur partner sex prefrences. This will be the stupidest things and embarrasing things tat gonna happen tat night.. here's an example : Guy A and B are on bed, both are horny.. so they start kissing and touching each other.. Guy A ask "Baby, am too horny, can i pop ur cherry" and guy B reply: "Dude, am a top! i'm suppose to fuck u"..."Shit, am a top too... so who gonna fuck who" guy a reply in confuse tone.... and then their enjoyment end there... some, may even be pissed of... lol... so its important to knw ur partner sex prefrences before hand, especially on dates....

3. Not bringing any condoms.

well.. so far tat is all i have in mind.. lol... if u have anything tat u wanna put in the list, tag it on my tag board.....

signing off
AyiE

i Think... i have insomia... i cant seem to sleep every night... Too many question running through my mind and also been having the same nightmare everysingle night... can u believe it? every night the same old nightmare and it seems to be sooo real..... haiz.... i've say prayers before i sleep as advice by most of my friends, i wash my leg before i go to bed and still i have the same old nightmare... here is what i have been dreaming...

due to my laziness, here's the short version of my nightmare: i was walking when a van stop infront of me and a guy drag me inside... was blind folder and i realised i was kidnap... by 2 or more chinese guys... they were speaking hokkien... they put me in a place that have been abandon by people and tie me up on a chair... after tat i felt sumthing sharp stab on my chest and that is when i can see my self being killed.... they then slaughter me and cut into pieces... i can literally see them doing this... as in my soul is out of my body and i can see wats going on... after tat, they send my head to my parents and then i woke up.... haiz.......

i knw its just a nightmare but everything seems so real... i can literally feel it when i was stab... haiz... anyway i got to go now... cya...

signing off
AyiE

OK... am really damn bored.. so i decided to post an article tat have been publish on trevvy.com (an online gay committee web portal)

Seriously i HATE discreet gays... or those gay ppl who wont want any other to knw that their gay... if so... then y be??? here's an article on discreet gays....

Author: Rong.

The closeted (or shall we say half–closeted) gay man is a breed of homosexuals that has recently come out of the closet (err, ok not really) but decided not to be open about his sexuality whether it's because he works in a homophobic industry, he actually has a wife and kids back home or simply because of internalized homophobia. He prides himself for winning the Oscars for ‘straight acting’ and prefers to use the term ‘discreet’ as if all other gay men who do not behave this way are screaming queens.

Don't get me wrong here. Many such gay men are not ashamed about their sexuality, like others who are more open about their sexuality but rather they harbour fears of being outed unnecessarily. The problem arise if such fears border along the line of paranoia and this can really get to the partners whom they are dating.

His profile will never have a photograph with his head attached (I have had interesting private messages from people on Trevvy.com with chest, asses and crotches in their dockets—lending credence to the phrase ‘meat market’). Most of the time, the closeted gay who maintains a profile is more interested in getting laid than trying to nap a date. The first few questions he'll ask are “Are you straight acting or sissy?” His mantra would be “not interested in sissy or effeminate guys”.

Super discreet about his identity, you would think he is from ISD and if he is successfully in sustaining your interest despite the lack of a face pic, it would probably take months before he reveals it and even then it is likely to be either teeny–tiny or with a big group of people where unless he tells you which is him, you are searching blindly to the closest possible match to his stats.

I am comfortable about my sexuality and my level of masculinity, its not like I'll tell everyone that I prefer sausages to oysters, wear outlandish outfits that do all the screaming for me or behave like a giggling school girl on the street. But because I am out so that would make me a possible liability to the closet gay I am a high risk factor (geez I sound like a bomb).

Highly paranoid about being outed, going out on dates with him is like having a CCTV tagging along. Everything and anything comes under his intense scrutiny.

If you manage to clear his background check and proceed to that elusive first date, he'll probably lay down the following ground rules:

Places to date — a popular gay hangout is a big no–no. Even in ‘safe’ venues Mr Discreet would rather you keep at least half a metre apart and would suddenly pretend not to know you whenever he bumps into someone from work. Needless to say he would not be caught dead at Powerhouse on Sunday.

Dresscode — you must not wear any t–shirt that has cheeky slogans that even suggest anything remotely gay. This automatically excludes skin–tight tank tops or anything tight or multi–colored in anyway. And absolutely no man–bags permitted. You should wear basic colors like black, white, etc. and a possible outfit is polo top and jeans. In other words think “straight man” and dress to match, but correct me if I am wrong but wasn't it the rage for gays some time back?

Rules of engagement — absolutely no effeminate behavior such as having a broken wrist, sashay, no standing with one hip sticking out, when speaking on gay topics must use coded language and keep your volume to a mere whisper, keep your pinky finger in check and no rolling of the eye balls.

Warning: Expect a disappearing act when you bump into your friends who do not observe the rules above.

I had my fair share of dating varying Mr Discreet of varying degree and I could probably try to understand or even accommodate but what I find disappointing about some closeted gay men is that their deep intolerance for the more effeminate people in our community, I have witness how they consider those who are “Sissy” as a disgrace to the community because as men we have to behave like (straight) men.

They would start “sissy bashing” and feel manlier after a bout putting someone down, they consider the gay community polluted with such feminine guys and that they are a group above and beyond others.

I finally came to the realization that if you got to pretend to be someone else on the first date then be prepared to act until you get a stroke. For me to control myself to this extent (just for any guy) would be insane. It is like flexing my muscles to look buff; I would sooner suffer from a cardiac arrest before the night is over.....

signing off
AyiE

This video was recommended by Hanif. It's a very brilliant, epic, tragic, and operatic clips wat more can one say? being a gay teen, this truly touched me in ways that most people wouldn't understand (Adapted Comment from YouTube)




Watch it... it's so touching....

Signing off
AyiE (BEING GAY IS NOT EASY) LOL

HEY GUYS, CHECK OUT THE NEWSPAPER: "Boy 19 die of boredom"
gawd, seriously, today sux to the core... no no.. everyday is sux for me... well... am not schooling, nor am i working... exactly 54more days till i go into the POLICE force!

cant wait actually, but at the same time am soooo freaking nervous....

SHIT, i can only enjoy my life for another 54more days!!! that is soooo short! welll firstly, i have to go relax on YFC, let haridz take over... 2ndly, go out with as many ppl as i can and enjoy...3rdly i wanna meet adk kid la! wei abg misses u alot! aiyak got many more things i wanna do before NS.. lol.. cause after ns... i have to start planning for a proper life already.... no more playing around...So.. yea....

And u knw wat... i think am closing down iSky, dun ask why.... though we have lots of sponsor but i dun think ppl appreciate the work tat i have put in it.. so yea.. isky will be close down (PENDING)...


Well tats all for nw
Signing off
AyiE

Save the whales. Collect the whole set.

A day without sunshine is like, night.

On the other hand, you have different fingers.

42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.

99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.

I feel like I'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.

Honk if you love peace and quiet.

Remember, half the people you know are below average.

He who laughs last thinks slowest.

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

I drive way too fast to worry about cholesterol.

Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have.

Monday is an awful way to spend 1/7 of your life.

A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

Change is inevitable, except from vending machines.

Get a new car for your spouse. It'll be a great trade!

Plan to be spontaneous tomorrow.

Always try to be modest, and be proud of it!

If you think nobody cares, try missing a couple of payments.

All those who believe in telekinesis raise my hand...

OK, so what's the speed of dark?

How do you tell when you're out of invisible ink?

If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.

When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now.

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

Eagles may soar, but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines.

What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

I used to have an open mind but my brains kept falling out.

I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.

Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?

Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what the hell happened.

Really, i have been single for a year now... 1 year 2weeks and 2 days to be exact. Its fun la being single but at certain times, can be very lonely... sigh... i hope the there's really someone for me out there... try to win my heart... and its not easy....

signing off
ayie

Hey yall.. here to update with some true fact...
20 of the best thing being a Gay! hahahaz...

1. You truly don't care who Julia Roberts is sleeping with.

2. You understand the difference between 43 brands of imported vodka.

3. You can call anyone "honey" including pets.

4. You know someone who definitely was in the emergency room with Richard Gere and the gerbil.

5. You understand the immense importance of good lighting.

6. You can be at a crowded disco the size of two football fields and still spot a toupee.

7. You can tell a woman you love her bathing suit, and mean her bathing suit.

8. You can explain the nuances between steady date, boyfriend and lover.

9. You really have "been there, done that."

10. Your women friends will tell you everything you want to know about their boyfriends. And that means everything.

11. You're the only type of male who gets to say "fabulous."

12. You can have naked pictures of men you don't know in your home.

13. You can have naked men you don't know in your home.

14. You know how to handle the telephone like a Stradivarius.

15. You understand why the good Lord invented spandex.

16. You understand why the good Lord didn't intend everyone to wear it.

17. You know how to get back at just about everyone.

18. You only wear polyester when you mean to.

19. You can smile to let someone know you can't stand them.

20. You can freeze a troll from 20 feet away

well tats all for nw

Signing off
AyiE

Finally, watever i have plan since december was put up today! GOSH, it was sooo freeaking tiring, Rushing here and there... Nothing cock up though but there was HELL a lot of LAST MINUTE THINGS TO BE DONE.... 1st the F2D Demo pilot late.. hahaz... then they forget to bring PACI... lucky we got sab and joyce to send it over from HQ... thx gurlS! then the RC demo dun have enough battery to last for 4demo, also the bloody uniform group taking the PA System... dammit.. hahaz.. but everything went fine la.. and for that... REALLY i wanna THANKS to those who have HELP me out organising the event and also making this open house a success... it will be my last event and it will be a memorable one indeed! anyway am feeling soooo lethargic.. so i blog later perhaps...

signing off
AyiE