Yea, its only been a week after NEW year and the thought of killing my self is back again, I am so lost, confuse and lonesome... i'm not sure what got into me but i'm just not being my self... i know, suicide is not the answer to solve problems and nvr will it solve. Like duh, everyone knows that, but when ur stress, u the thought of suicide will always be there...

i make a big loss this year and i can't afford to loose anymore.... this is just sux, sux to the core... haiz, i gtg now.....

signing off
Ayie...