It has been a tiring and long week for me.... sorry for not updating my blogs cause my schedule is pack. Ever since i start working... my body have been aching... and ive been feeling tired eversince... i dun have the time to meet my friends, and even my own syg.... i really miss him badly... with him having hia ROTA, and NDP training and with me having a full time job trying to secure my financial state.... so yea.... for those of u who are still wondering where am i working at.. i wont be able to tell u soon.. hehe... cause i dun like ppl to disturb me while working or ask for discount... but i really hope someone can come down and have a break with me. cause i will usually eat alone... :( kesian gitu......

anyway i gtg
signing off
Dzul

Dah lama tak berjumpa
Rindu rasa hati
Inginku bertemu denganmu
Biarpun hati ini
Menyatakan benci
Namun hakikat
Kau masihku sayang

Mengapa kita berjumpa
Dan mengapa kita bercinta
Niat hatiku nak kekal lama
Hidup denganmu wahai kasih
Niat hatiku tak nak berpisah
Apakan daya jodoh tiada

Kenangan demi kenangan
Menjelma diingatan
Sukarnya melupakan dirimu
Rintihan demi rintihan
Menyeksakan hidupku
Aku derita... keranamu
Oh kekasih

Sungguh tidakku sangka
Akhirnya begini
Sebuah ikatan asmara
Engkau yang aku sayang
Yang aku kasihi
Mungkinkah bersatu kembali

What happen to "lets go for our honeymoon", Lets rent a house and stay togethere, When i have a car and at night if u are hungry i fetch u for supper.... all those romantic tat suppose to happen wont be happening i guess.... I dont even know what wrong have i done to deserve all this... oh allah swt, i pray to you... i seek rahman and rahim from you. Pls make me stronger...and pls answer my prayer....

I always, out of pure stupidity (and resist to learn the most important lesson in life), put 100% in every relationship that i get into. Altho i tell my self time and again that i need to reserve 20% and only put in 80% in any relationship so that i can rebounce back into perfect shape with that 20%. BUT my emotional self refuses to listen to my inner thoughts. I still offer 100% and i think i will continue to offer that. Nah, I'll offer 99%. 1% to remain alive to start munching on alcohol...