its about time for me to declare tat ive lost in this life. Its getting meaningless every single day, There was once a gentlemen told me tat "There is no obstacles bigger than a man, as god gives us test and hardship for many reasons. but never will he gives us those that are too big for us to overcome. thus we are strong enough to solve and go thru whatever that comes our way." But i wonder if its really true.... if it is... howcome im facing an obstacle tat sumtime can be as big as a mountain... if small problem keep on showing up... and if it stack on each other... sooner or later it will get bigger.... bigger for u to overcome it....
Well im not proud of anything but facing the fact that im dying in 7 years time due to my blood disorder, there are still some ass hole who want to ruin my life by spreading rumours that im HIV+ and have std.
My life is already Ruin and now they are trying to ruin my reputation too???
i cant sleep at night, eat my meals just bcause of this problems cause it get me thinking, what wrong have i done to deserve this treatment!
It easy for ppl to say "Just forget about it" or "dont think to much about it" but its literally difficult to do tat.... cause u might not knw what will this ppl be talking about next.
Im grateful and thankful to all my friends who have been supporting me and giving me the comfort that i need, especially to my lovely masyam.... but im sad to say tat till the case is not settle, ur comfort and support is just not enough to ease my mind.......but i do appreciate it....
well thats not the only problem im facing, another big problems i have is financial wise. I m still looking for Job.... i need money to support my self but recession period simply ruin alot of job opportunity. i dun want my masyam to think tat im treating him like ATM, cause im NOT.... haiz...
Life is simply sux arh.. really....
now my masyam need his own time... and i got no ONe to comfort me.... haiz...
signing off
AyiE
