July 2nd is the day i was born and this year is the first year in my entire life celebrated my birthday with the person whom i really love... thx dear, i really appreciate all the effort that you have put. and also sorry for not updating as all of you shud probably knw, ive already start working full time at some retail outlet.... anyway would like to thank my froze dj and fans who give me a suprise birthday celebration on the 3rd July. anyhoos i was hoping to celebrate my birthday with my july babies boos... Mardy. rasyidi and amran.... but sadly when they go for the outing... i wasnt even invited.... it's been promised to go out together and celebrate as a group but for some reason they celebrated it without me..... well to be honest i am dissapointed but well.. tats life and i cant do anything abt it.... cause some ppl choose who to be their friends and there's always favoritism. or just being bias. July is a mix and match feeling for me... some are happy one... and some are way too upset for me....

Some people say friendship is forever and some simply say friends come and go..... im beginning to think tat friends come and go.... cause their action prove me enough... correct me if im wrong pls.... and also if friends forget about friends, why bother being friends? and its not worth being friends if you cant really treasure your own friends... enough said la.... im not gonna be moody and stuff......

i got work to do later..... and oh ya... i already got 2 compliment from customer! hahaz... well am i good or am i just good...

signing off
AyiE

It has been a tiring and long week for me.... sorry for not updating my blogs cause my schedule is pack. Ever since i start working... my body have been aching... and ive been feeling tired eversince... i dun have the time to meet my friends, and even my own syg.... i really miss him badly... with him having hia ROTA, and NDP training and with me having a full time job trying to secure my financial state.... so yea.... for those of u who are still wondering where am i working at.. i wont be able to tell u soon.. hehe... cause i dun like ppl to disturb me while working or ask for discount... but i really hope someone can come down and have a break with me. cause i will usually eat alone... :( kesian gitu......

anyway i gtg
signing off
Dzul

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What happen to "lets go for our honeymoon", Lets rent a house and stay togethere, When i have a car and at night if u are hungry i fetch u for supper.... all those romantic tat suppose to happen wont be happening i guess.... I dont even know what wrong have i done to deserve all this... oh allah swt, i pray to you... i seek rahman and rahim from you. Pls make me stronger...and pls answer my prayer....

I always, out of pure stupidity (and resist to learn the most important lesson in life), put 100% in every relationship that i get into. Altho i tell my self time and again that i need to reserve 20% and only put in 80% in any relationship so that i can rebounce back into perfect shape with that 20%. BUT my emotional self refuses to listen to my inner thoughts. I still offer 100% and i think i will continue to offer that. Nah, I'll offer 99%. 1% to remain alive to start munching on alcohol...

Some 2,500 pink-attired supporters of gay rights gathered in a park in Singapore on Saturday, to form a pink dot, which was photographed from a nearby building."

anyway all of us did enjoy our self there... and our voguelicious friends also came down to perform for this particular event.... coolios.....

here are some picture of us.....

I once told a friend of mine, that life is not perfect if there's no problem in it. In order for it to be perfect, you must face some problem. Cause if there's no problem in life.... then that is not Life. Every life, there lies a problem.... but with every problem there lies a solution cause god is fair.

But its actually up to us as an individual to look for the solution... cause all of us have a choice to make... its either u choose to, or u choose not to. but then again the decision is urs. Being wise is not as easy nor its not impossible..... With the faith of god (if u have one) everything is Possible.

Actually, as i am typing this, im also wondering... why the heck am i wasting time typing all this nonsense! lol.....

Anyway im here to update la.... but i just have no idea what to update.... well.. anyway... im sooo looking forward for this coming 13May.... no its not my bdae... but its the day tat im gonna celebrate with my masyam....We've been together for almost 5mths now and its still holding strong. Though we often fight and have alot of misunderstanding.... we are still holding on. To be honest and truth.... this is the most challenging relationship that im experiencing out of my 8 years of being a homosexuallity.... but there's no way im gonna give up....like what i mention above... "Every life, there lies a problem.... but with every problem there lies a solution cause god is fair." keep moving forward....

Im already thankful and happy with what i have now.... i feel almost complete..... well wat more do i want? hmmm i actually want to make as many friends as possible... in malay there's a phrase "Pergi ke warung membeli makan.... Sesudah makan, pinggan di basoh, Biarlah kita mencari rakan.... janganlah kita membuat musuh"....

i also wanna thank my masyam for being there for me when i need him... also who force me to spurt my problem out and stressing the message to me that he is willing to hear me out... and for that im grateful and lucky to have u as my guy...

well i think i say enough.. cause im kinda lazy to type things out.. so yea.. till then...

signing off
Dzul'Anderlade Junior

haha, would like to congrats zulhelmi hasbi for making thru the 1st round of Audition for Anugerah 2009 that was held at East Point on 2nd May 2009. and also we wish him all the best for the UPCOMING audition...... PONDAN POWER org kate... lol....

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its about time for me to declare tat ive lost in this life. Its getting meaningless every single day, There was once a gentlemen told me tat "There is no obstacles bigger than a man, as god gives us test and hardship for many reasons. but never will he gives us those that are too big for us to overcome. thus we are strong enough to solve and go thru whatever that comes our way." But i wonder if its really true.... if it is... howcome im facing an obstacle tat sumtime can be as big as a mountain... if small problem keep on showing up... and if it stack on each other... sooner or later it will get bigger.... bigger for u to overcome it....

Well im not proud of anything but facing the fact that im dying in 7 years time due to my blood disorder, there are still some ass hole who want to ruin my life by spreading rumours that im HIV+ and have std.

My life is already Ruin and now they are trying to ruin my reputation too???

i cant sleep at night, eat my meals just bcause of this problems cause it get me thinking, what wrong have i done to deserve this treatment!

It easy for ppl to say "Just forget about it" or "dont think to much about it" but its literally difficult to do tat.... cause u might not knw what will this ppl be talking about next.

Im grateful and thankful to all my friends who have been supporting me and giving me the comfort that i need, especially to my lovely masyam.... but im sad to say tat till the case is not settle, ur comfort and support is just not enough to ease my mind.......but i do appreciate it....

well thats not the only problem im facing, another big problems i have is financial wise. I m still looking for Job.... i need money to support my self but recession period simply ruin alot of job opportunity. i dun want my masyam to think tat im treating him like ATM, cause im NOT.... haiz...

Life is simply sux arh.. really....
now my masyam need his own time... and i got no ONe to comfort me.... haiz...

signing off
AyiE

Okie... been a long time since i hang around with my NS friends... those ppl who entertain me throughout the PBOC and SSO courses.... one of them is staying so closed to me but yet we rarely meet up. So since today there's an opportunity for us to meet up... we decided too... just to catch up on some things..... we had our early dinner at long john and then walk all the way to one fullurton starbuck and hang around there...

it was kinda fun.... well suprisingly it does ease my mind....

anyhooos.... im logging off nw
kinda tired... EARTH HOUR IS TMR! DO NOT FORGET TO VOTE FOR EARTH!

signing off
AyiE

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In support of Earth Hour. iBlog will remain Dark for the next 1 week.
This year, a world global election is taking place, An election between earth and global warming.
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Saturday March 28, from 8.30pm to 9.30pm

Bring your picnic rug and food basket to enjoy a simple and fun time with us, as we witness the first ever blackout of buildings in Singapore!

Date: 28th March 2009
Time: 5:00pm-9:30pm
Venue: Esplanade Park

5.00pm – Opening of the Green Carnival
5.30pm - Dawn Syndrome Association dance performance, Lila Drums Djembe Project and Miss Earth eco-fashion show among other groups
7.30pm- Concert hosted by Gold 90.5FM DJs and performances by Reverie, Dawn Ho, Michaela Therese & Wynne Sandosham of Soul Circle
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haha i just took a quiz and this is all about me... and its rather true... weird... but indeed its the truth....

View on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Ive always wanted to go on a honey moon with my hubby... and guess wat... it gonna come true. This year for the first time i celebrate my birthday, im gonna celebrate it at a resort in batam with my HUBBY as a holiday vacation/honey moon for us! oh gosh, this will be the BEST birthday present im gonna have! well lets not put on hope yet... cause i dunno if the plan will come to reality but hell im excited!!! here's the preview of the resort tat ill be going with my sweet lil brownie.....

Well on the 23rd Feb 2009, out of d blue moon, Brownie plan to go for Ubin trip... well was kinda suprised but oh well, its my kind of thing, adventuring... so why not right.... so we planned to go on 1st march but instead the plan have to be brought forward to 28 feb instead.
So... on the 28feb... WE DID go for the trip to UBIN... lol.. im really AMAZED that brownie plan actually came into reality! nt saying that his plan always failed but.. most of the time i guess... LOL... fickle minded boy! oh well i still love him! LOL....

Anyway went there around afternoon, took the bum boat ($2.50, pay to the boat man) and head towards ubin... it was kinda nice to ride on the bum boat... if only the weather is sunny... cause i was kinda drizzling when were on it...but still i enjoyed it...

so upon reaching Ubin... we took the map and rent a bicycle... well... for safety reason, we took erm a good quality bike.. obviously the rental wud be a lil bit more expensive... $10per bike. cause to me, when come adventuring... safety is always first. so we took the wheeler... wanted to rent the Giant... but to think again.. its only for a day... so yay! we got a bike... it was kinda funny seeing my hubby ride the bike... cause erm the bike is rather big and tall and OBVIOUSLY he is short.... LOL.....

We wonder around the island on our bike and after 3hours of exhausting ride, we headed back to the main land....

we decided to head to home.. to wash up and meet again in the evening for dinner... he was soooo excited cause he thought of bringing me to a Steam boat at Chong Pang which located @ Kallang. so i meet up brownie again at 7.30pm kallang... and we headed to the SO CALL chong pang steam boat... LOL... and when we reach.... to our suprise... the shop was not there... wait... not only the shop... but!!! the BUILDING!! was no longer there.... LOL.... well i can understand if the shop have close down or move.... but not the BUILDING it self... its like... one day u go to dhoby ghaut and thought of going to plaza singapura.... when u reach... the PLAZA SINGAPURA is not there... only flat land.... WEIRD rite? yet hilarious... and u shud see brownie expression he was like... so paiseh... and cute... hehehe... and he ask me where to head now...

so we head to orchard.. taking a cab there and i tell u i cant stop laughing thinking abt a building tat gone missing! lol.....

and oh ya... we head to center point to eat... with CONFIDENT, he claim tat there's a KFC there... cause initally i wanted to eat KFC cause of cheese fries... BUT there WASNT any KFC there.. lol.. so we choose long John instead... so yea... tats abt it.. so after we ate... we meet up with alfian and wan... and lepak at SMU.... and god.. by then im feeling soooooo LETHARGIC.... hahaz... so we headed home... taking the night rider.... oh well tat's about it.... the rest i leave it up to the pic for explanation.. afterall picture says a thousand words...

signing off AyiE.

i knw i haven been updating my blog... so now im trying to. lol... but the question is... whats there for me to update?? WELL ever since i started working... my life will be erm... very.... boring.... MONDAY TO FRIDAY, work from 10am to 3pm. then go home, check my mail, online msn and wait till masyam go back home, cam with him, talk to him on phone and off to bed.... LOL... boring i knw.... but i did have some fun on the weekend, by going to mum hse or even meet up with my masyam! erm....well i guess tats all for NOW... erm below are some pic for u to view... lol....

Gift for my masyam, on our 2nd mth anniversary cum valentine

Karaoke with my sis and her boi @ my mum hse... LOL... and lastly... tanning with my masyam! hehe....

signing off
AyiE