AyiE-BoI

2010-01-03T07:28:00.002+08:00

First and foremost, i would like to wish all of you a blessing new year, Hope you have a wonderful 2010 ahead.

its been ages since i updated my blog (i know) and a lot of things have happened to me which i am not certainly happy about it.

Insecureness can lead to seperation, trust me. why would you want to have a relationship when you yourself knows that you don't trust him. Also, how do you feel when you find out that your love one don't trust you.

It irritates me alot when my love one just jump to conclusion and accuse, and their main reason is just that they are being precautious. Why do you need to be precaution when you trust in your partner. I don't mind if its once a while... but everytime? i think tat is just too much. Ever heard the phrase where when a mother say no to the child, the child will indeed do it. its human reflex. The more you forbid ONE from doing thing, the more they WILL do those things you forbid them. and if you are being insecure, your love one might be afraid to be truthful to you cause everytime they want to do things that they like, you would obviously reject it, hence they have to come up with a lie just so that they can do the things that they likes. and then you will come around and says that your love one betray your trust. But in the first place, have you been easy on him.... or are you just preasurise him and expect him to do only YOUR WAY.

My relationship now is like a fishing line stretching to the maximum point of stretch, where at any moment, when a great force strike, it will just snap. and when it snap, its too late.

you can say "yala yala i will change ok" but everyone knows that it is easier to be said than done. As i mentioned earlier on, the more you feel insecure towards me, the more my love for you drift away. Its your call...

I have enuff of my dad controling me, and i dun wish to have anyone else to control me. i need you to take care of me, and accept me for who i am....

I have been feeling stress, confuse and depress lately. i really wanted to tell you that i dun like the way you treated me but i just go no guts to tell you.

Please do something about it. before its too late.

2009-12-05T01:55:00.001+08:00

Life is pretty boring dont you tink so... its like a tape recorder... it plays and rewind... play and rewind... im literally sick or life... haiz...Saturday december 5, 2009. tats today. exactly 8 mre days and we're 1year old.. but y are we still behaving like kids? i wonder.

im so freaking stress right nw and my mood aint in the right mode... i need my personal space. i need it to breathe....

Its easy for one to apologize... but its nt easy for me to just forgive and forget.... im trying.. i am... really....

anyway my plan for yesterday was sooooo mendak... haiz.. meet the usual ppl! zul, yan, fir and jat... lepaking with my yew tee bros. and dang i left my phone with zul!

i bet "he" might be calling and smsing and assuming things... haiz. another day of fight is my prediction.... cause i knw he gonna accuse me here and there even though i told him i need my own time.....

signing off
ayie

Outfit for Halloween

2009-10-23T06:35:00.004+08:00

Hmm well this is my outfit for halloween... Kuda Kepang remix, Javanese ghost... with and without the mask

Maintaining Your Relationship.

2009-09-24T20:38:00.001+08:00

Puppy love will last average around 3-5 months. 3 months is what i will call the ‘honeymoon’ period. That’s where true colors wont surface yet. That’s exactly the time when you will tend to only see the good things about your partner. Bad sides of your partner rarely surfaces and is carefully hide. Not until the ‘honeymoon’ period ends.

After the ‘honeymoon’ period, all the bad(hopefully not as bad) will start to surface. You will then notice all the negative side of your partner. Be it attitude, habits, or etiquette or anything else. From this on, the way you talk to each other(used to be very romantic and changed to not as romantic etc), the number of times you meet each other, the attitude towards each other and the list goes on.

Maintaining your relationship is very important if you love your partner and don’t want to lose him/her. But as the saying goes, ‘it takes two to clap’. Meaning to say that, both of you have to actually put in effort to maintain your relationship. Arguments are common in any relationship(Tell me if you can find me any couple that has been together for years and has never argued). So the both of you, hopefully the both of you are reading this, have to bear in mind that even if there are any arguments don’t ever ask for a break up.

Learn to cool down. Think about the argument. Sit down and discuss with each other. If you don’t like what your partner did(he/she went out with another person etc), express how you feel about it. Tell your partner why you don’t like and give all the reasons. And as for the partner, learn to listen first and reply later. Don’t react on impulse. Digest first and think about it.

Tell your partner of all the beautiful things that you like about him/her. And then tell him/her what you don’t really like with reasons to why is that so. Ask your partner about what he/she does and doesn’t like about you so that the both of you can change with each other. Give chances and don’t ever break promises.

Surprise your partner! Yes, everybody loves surprises. Write a poem if you have never done so and make sure that it’s original and it’s from the bottom of your heart. Again I say honesty is important. Or you can try buy him/her presents on random and put in front his/her doorstep or office. Write a hand-written letter about how much you treasure him/her. Be creative and think of a great surprise.

Don’t forget to frequently remind each other that you love each other. People tend to not really tell each other about how much they love and care for each other after certain times. If you are one of them, it’s time to bring back the old days.

Spend time with each other more often. If you’re busy, don’t forget to text and call. Show your concerns towards each other. Don’t tell me you can’t take a few short seconds to text your loved ones if you can do other things. Go out on days you are not working.Play board games like Monopoly,Uno,or do anything that’s fun. Try something new. Go kite-flying, cycling, ice skating. Anything you can think of instead of always catching the movies and stuffs like that. Be different!

Keep photos of each other. Lots of photos like a few albums and more! So that each time you see the photos, you will have good everlasting memories of each other. And i must repeat, don’t ever think about breakup if you argue. Cool down and come to a conclusion. There’s bound to be a solution for every problem.If your partner gets angry, don’t get all angry too. Why? Because bombs and bombs will cause a huge explosion. It will be another war..! Let your partner cool down first and then talk about it.

Signing off
AyiE

Act of Randomness...

2009-09-16T09:50:00.005+08:00

Hey yall people! i knw its been a long time since i updated my blog! been busy with life, literally... Facing loads of problems but finally i think im feeling rather relax now and trying to enjoy my life to the fullest. I realised that i have my FM clans, and also my Kompang friends to pamper me and make me realised how friendly, and approachable kinda person i was. I have been stressed with all my problems and this lead me to neglect all my friends who have been there for me when i need them. Im sorry for all my action but i can assure you i will be the afad or ayie whom you used to know.

Just go easy on me and i can assure you nothing will happen...

Oh ya.. first of all... Im quite Pissed! cause by right... ill be taking my Baju Kurong on the 17th which is tmr! and i was just inform by sis tat i can only collect it on 18th instead! i was like wtf! how can like that! it clashed with my POT LUCK @ ECP! darn it! maner ader time sey nak collect baju, abeh nak masak, then nak kene gi tampinese jumper Candy, Nwrl, Apian and andree.... Aiyo....how arh how??

Secondly, im looking forward for 18th Sept! Frozefm will be having a POT LUCK @ ECP with the dj! Im gonna cook Kway Teow Goreng and bring some cake! Weeeeeee~

Thirdly... After 3 weeks! My rooms are CLEANED!!!! and getting ready for raya... but still sad cause my Baju kurong is not DONE YET!!

Fourth! im still awaiting for my present from my sister!

Fifth, wanna say i enjoyed having iftar with Fadstar and some frozefm Friends!....

Events COming Up:

PS. Still awaiting for 25th September 2009. Muackx

2009-08-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of ramadan and god already gave me alot of obstacle.... "sesungguhnya aku berpuasa". I really had a bad day today.... fought with my area manager, shop manager and also some customer.... i keep saying "sesunnguhnya aku berpuasa" to keep my self down and prevent me from having anger cause it will cause sin... if its a sin tat have been made by your own will.... the punishment will be worst then the sin you make by syaitan influence. so yea.... i have a great plan this ramadan.... its a time for me to realise my mistake and ask for forgiveness.... and by malam lailatu qadar, i shud have finish the whole book of the holy quran. I prayed to allah asking for forgiveness, asking to give me to have faith in my self for he have sent a disease for me to live with, asking him to give ar rahman (mercy) on me.... and to be truthfull to all my muslim brother and sis.
Its tickle me knowing that even this month of ramadhan, there are still people who will find fault from one muslim brother.... arent we suppose to do good deeds in this month of ramadhan?? haiz... maybe this is just an obstacle.... ill pray hard so that i can over come this obstacle insya allah....
wal taufiq wal hidaya wasalam.

dzul

Why do muslim fast?

2009-08-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

In the Qur’an, the times for fasting during Ramadan are clearly set. One must fast from an hour before daybreak until sunset. Since this is the clear direction of the Qur’an, this is how most Muslims observe the 30 days of Ramadan.

Usually Muslims who are fasting in observance of Ramadan take a light meal prior to daylight. In the evening they eat again. Part of this ritual fasting is to help take the focus on worldly things so the mind and heart are redirected toward spiritual things.

In some ways the month of Ramadan is similar to Rosh Hashanah, because it marks a time of spiritual renewal and commitment toward becoming a better follower of one’s religion. By fasting, and as well abstaining from sexual practice during the day the focus is on renewing one’s commitment to God and to Islam.

Not everyone must fast during Ramadan. Women who are pregnant or nursing need not fast. The elderly also may not fast. Children’s ages when they begin the fast differ according the interpretation of the specific Muslim sect. Some mark the age at 10, while others more generally state that the fast should be undertaken by any undergoing puberty. Those who have medical conditions that might be disturbed by fasting are usually not required to fast.

Renewing one’s commitment to God is not only solemn but as well celebratory, and a typical evening meal will include sweet treats like dates or candies. The nights of Ramadan are meant to be joyous family times, just as the days are meant to be times of contemplation and additional prayer.

Fasting during Ramadan, and breaking the fast at night, called the iftar, is a sacrifice to God. Muslims not only renew their commitment to God but also dwell on those who may through necessity forgo food on a regular basis, such as the poor.

Fasting is thought to sanctify a person, but one does not derive spiritual benefit if he or she breaks certain Islamic laws. Hurting someone else, lying, being greedy, falsely testifying against someone, or denouncing someone are very specific sins that are thought to be especially evil during Ramadan.

Part of this is based on the Islamic belief that Ramadan is a time when the devils of the world are contained and cannot influence a person to evil. This means committing a sin during Ramadan cannot be excused as demonically influenced. Instead, the person sins without influence and from the heart, which is far worse than sins caused by temptation of devils.

The iftar is sometimes mistakenly believed to be a time when people gobble up their food and eat in excess to prepare for fasting the next day. Actually, meals before dawn and after dark should be light. To overeat would represent greed and thus be sinful.

2009-08-20T06:52:00.003+08:00

Revolution Flair, its a talent contest... well im not participating it... Hell no.. what talent do i have... but im puting this up because i was the one who design it! LOL... yea im proud of it... well its nt tat good... but at least i try... was just giving a helping hand for a friend of mind whom organise it... LOL... anyway for the past few days, ive been focusing on my work... work... and work.... saving money to rent a house.. LOL... wanna try to feel how its like to be literally independent.... so yea..... anyway im getting promote soon.... yea i knw its tat fast!!! yay me! hahaz, its a job well done for me i guess.... and oh ya.... sis cut my hair yesterday after i accidentally trim it wrongly.... here's her art work.. LOL..

Cool rite!! i knw... mohawk! and guess wat... thanks to her.. many ppl actually compliment on it... and nt to mention... they even touch my head to feel the shaved area.... LOL... haikle say mcm rasa nonok baru abes shave.... wakaka.... well i dunno if its true.... dun even wish to knw... Anyway wira anasir (kompang) have already merge with SPT (Stubborn Paradise Team) which i dun really like cause u knw... cutting are.. erm so the non innocent group... i am innocent u knw.. so yea.... it will be hard for us to recruit new member nw.... anyway this is a Identity card i design for my group...

haha dunno if others like it... so yea.... well i gtg... working in a few hours time.. so yea

signing out...
DAJ

Famous Last Word

2009-08-18T11:03:00.001+08:00

Now I know that I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your?

And I know there's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change

So many bright lights to cast a shadow, but can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding I'm incomplete?
A life that's so demanding, I get so weak
A love that's so demanding, I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

Can you see my eyes are shining bright
?Cause I'm out here on the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror and I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding I'm incomplete?
A love that's so demanding I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you could say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying)
'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying)
With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying)
Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying)
Asleep or dead!

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead!

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead!

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead!)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead!)

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead!)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead!)

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead!)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Specially Dedicate for you.

2009-08-06T09:58:00.003+08:00

The lyrics to the song....
Going back to the corner,
where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard
Got your picture in my hand
Saying "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"
Some try to hand me money
They don't understand,
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense
What else can I do?
How can I move on
when I'm still in love with you?

Cause' if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
Then you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street,
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

Policeman says "Son you cant stay here"
I say there's someone I'm waiting for if its a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground,
even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind,
this is the first place she will go

Cause' if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
Then you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street,
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving

People talk about the guy,
thats waiting in on a girl
Woooaah -oooh
There are no holes in his shoes,
But a big hole in his world
Oooooh
Maybe I'll get famous for the man who can't be moved,
and maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news,
and you'd come running to the corner,
Cause' you'll know its just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who cant be moved

Cause' if one day you wake up,
and find that your missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
I'm not moving
(Cause' if one day you wake up,
and find that your missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here
to the place that we'd meet
and you'd see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street)

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag; I'm not gonna move

2009-07-14T12:44:00.002+08:00

July 2nd is the day i was born and this year is the first year in my entire life celebrated my birthday with the person whom i really love... thx dear, i really appreciate all the effort that you have put. and also sorry for not updating as all of you shud probably knw, ive already start working full time at some retail outlet.... anyway would like to thank my froze dj and fans who give me a suprise birthday celebration on the 3rd July. anyhoos i was hoping to celebrate my birthday with my july babies boos... Mardy. rasyidi and amran.... but sadly when they go for the outing... i wasnt even invited.... it's been promised to go out together and celebrate as a group but for some reason they celebrated it without me..... well to be honest i am dissapointed but well.. tats life and i cant do anything abt it.... cause some ppl choose who to be their friends and there's always favoritism. or just being bias. July is a mix and match feeling for me... some are happy one... and some are way too upset for me....

Some people say friendship is forever and some simply say friends come and go..... im beginning to think tat friends come and go.... cause their action prove me enough... correct me if im wrong pls.... and also if friends forget about friends, why bother being friends? and its not worth being friends if you cant really treasure your own friends... enough said la.... im not gonna be moody and stuff......

i got work to do later..... and oh ya... i already got 2 compliment from customer! hahaz... well am i good or am i just good...

signing off
AyiE

Tiring and long week

2009-06-28T06:32:00.003+08:00

It has been a tiring and long week for me.... sorry for not updating my blogs cause my schedule is pack. Ever since i start working... my body have been aching... and ive been feeling tired eversince... i dun have the time to meet my friends, and even my own syg.... i really miss him badly... with him having hia ROTA, and NDP training and with me having a full time job trying to secure my financial state.... so yea.... for those of u who are still wondering where am i working at.. i wont be able to tell u soon.. hehe... cause i dun like ppl to disturb me while working or ask for discount... but i really hope someone can come down and have a break with me. cause i will usually eat alone... :( kesian gitu......

anyway i gtg
signing off
Dzul

Tiring and long week

2009-06-28T06:32:00.000+08:00

Niat hati tak nak berpisah - Arrow

2009-06-24T11:57:00.001+08:00

Dah lama tak berjumpa
Rindu rasa hati
Inginku bertemu denganmu
Biarpun hati ini
Menyatakan benci
Namun hakikat
Kau masihku sayang

Mengapa kita berjumpa
Dan mengapa kita bercinta
Niat hatiku nak kekal lama
Hidup denganmu wahai kasih
Niat hatiku tak nak berpisah
Apakan daya jodoh tiada

Kenangan demi kenangan
Menjelma diingatan
Sukarnya melupakan dirimu
Rintihan demi rintihan
Menyeksakan hidupku
Aku derita... keranamu
Oh kekasih

Sungguh tidakku sangka
Akhirnya begini
Sebuah ikatan asmara
Engkau yang aku sayang
Yang aku kasihi
Mungkinkah bersatu kembali

2009-06-24T11:12:00.002+08:00

What happen to "lets go for our honeymoon", Lets rent a house and stay togethere, When i have a car and at night if u are hungry i fetch u for supper.... all those romantic tat suppose to happen wont be happening i guess.... I dont even know what wrong have i done to deserve all this... oh allah swt, i pray to you... i seek rahman and rahim from you. Pls make me stronger...and pls answer my prayer....

Menu of the Day

2009-06-09T03:14:00.002+08:00

I always, out of pure stupidity (and resist to learn the most important lesson in life), put 100% in every relationship that i get into. Altho i tell my self time and again that i need to reserve 20% and only put in 80% in any relationship so that i can rebounce back into perfect shape with that 20%. BUT my emotional self refuses to listen to my inner thoughts. I still offer 100% and i think i will continue to offer that. Nah, I'll offer 99%. 1% to remain alive to start munching on alcohol...

lol

signing off

Dzul.

2009-05-18T02:58:00.007+08:00

Its been the Most Happening week for me this year and im telling you tat i enjoyed every single minute of it.... First thing first... just to let u readers knw... tat my relationship with my masyam is still standing strong! even though we fight occasionally... buy hey, isnt tat happen in relationship.. so yea... i knw some of you may think that our relationship wont last long... but with all the support i have with my friends.... insya allah it will.... and i knw it will....

anyhoos... last Wednesday... 13th May 2009... Masyam and me celebrate our 5th month of us being together...i really had a good time with him... though the plans that he make is a lil bit... erm... impromptu... but i really appreciate the effort and the energy he put on tat day... thanks syg... First thing first... mcm biaser... we watch movies... Thought of watching the Ramen girl but at tat point of time.. it wasnt shown yet... so we watch the X-Men wolverine Origin...

Hmmm... about this movie... its not that interesting... but ok la.... anyway we watch it @ GV Marina Square... its his first time there... i was like..."wat..." (-.-)"' haha...

and oh ya... after that...masyam plan was to go and play bowling.. but we kinda like.. exit marina square premises and like erm lazy to go back... so we decided to head down to orchard... But before we actually head down... we had erm... finger food at carls junior.... masyam want me to try their beef chillie cheese fries.... so yea... once we had that... we head down to coffee club at orchard to have our tea break session at the coffee club.

after our tea break.. well let see... we had a stroll around orchard road and stop by at the istana park... and oh ya.. after tat... we head to the fish and co. at the glass house... its a nice ambience i can say.... quite erm.. romantic for couple.... :)

Masyam ordered the seafood platter for 2 and a Sea Monkey drink... i tell u.. the jug is super big arh and its only $6.50!!! hahaz.... recession proof... LOL... the food was overall nice... and yea.. i like mussel! especially with the garlic butter sauce.... Mmmm marvelous!.... after all the nice dinner.... (im getting bloated, we ate the whole day) we had DESERT! i was like.. omg i dunno if i can fit in anymore... but GOTA HELL... its my celebration.. and damn... who cant resist ben and jerry ice cream! i knw i cant! haha.. so masyam took me to cathay cineplex to have our dessert....

Doesnt tat make ur mouth drool.... oh dear... yum2! THANKS MASYAM!!!!

and after that.... masyam sent me to the bus stop and we head home..... and again.. thank you syg... really enjoy and loving it.....

Well on the 14th... which is the next day.... masyam came over my house.. to erm.. be with me... and aftertat around afternoon... we head down to Kallang Leisure Park... took 67 from cck all the way to kallang mrt station then took the free shuttle bus... well its my first time there... and i find it.. erm .. the place.. soo ulu.. like gt nth there... anyway we were there to play bowling... LOL... and its pure fun and enjoyment.. oh well even though its only 2 of us... we still had fun... oh not to mention... between me and masyam.. i won! lol.... just a mini match we had together...

after bowl... we went to erm...vivo city to have our dinner at banquet... and then home sweet home... though its a short event.. but still.. i enjoy it! thx masyam....

and on the 16th may... Jeng jeng jeng.... its the PINK DOT SG event! i really didnt expect to have alot of people attending my dang... 2000Ppl turn up in PINK! the event was held @ hong lim park Successfully! thanks to the organiser... and to my surprise... no law enforcement officer at sight! wow...

as quote by BBC news "Halfway across the world, as police moved in to break up a gay rights protest in Russia, another country known for being equally as restrictive on liberal ideals was holding its first gay rally undisturbed.

Some 2,500 pink-attired supporters of gay rights gathered in a park in Singapore on Saturday, to form a pink dot, which was photographed from a nearby building."

anyway all of us did enjoy our self there... and our voguelicious friends also came down to perform for this particular event.... coolios.....

here are some picture of us.....

and yesterday on the 17th May... the world celebrate International Anti Homophobia day today... but well... singapore dun really celebrate it.. but we did went out... erm... SUPPOSEDLY, im suppose to attend the demonstration for aeromodelling @ hwa chong institute but the plan was terribly cancel cause we were late... it start at 4pm but we came out from the house at 4pm it self... how phatetic.. haiz.... so we head down to clementi... thought of heading down to the old ginza plaza cause they have turn to west coast plaza... but i have no idea on how to go.... so end up... since we are hungry.... masyam bought ramly burger and also a pack of nasi lemak and kway teow for me from ananas cafe... and eat by the road side... kesian eh... like some kids that have no place for shelter.. LOL...

When we eat.. this is our scenery... beautiful isnt it?? LOL

Masyam with his nasi lemak....

Me and masyam with our food.... LOL

after eating we head down to city hall to meet up with rykle and afian... then after.. we head down to marina bay to meet fairul and his friend... our plan is to watch the fire work... which is very beautiful.... sry didnt take any pic.. was enjoy watching it with masyam....

after which me and masyam head down to lau pa sat to have our dinner and then home sweet home......

gosh... 4days outing.. hahaz...

well ill update more... sleeping soon...

signing off

Dzul

Support Pink Dot SG!

2009-05-09T05:50:00.001+08:00

Do you support the freedom of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) people to love? Then show your support by joining our smart mob at Hong Lim Park on 16 May, 4.30pm!

This is NOT a protest nor a parade, just a simple call for open-minded Singaporeans to come together to form a pink dot, of which aerial photographs will be taken. This pink dot is a celebration of diversity and equality, and a symbol of Singapore's more inclusive future.

Venue: The field at Hong Lim Park
Date & Time: May 16 (Sat), 4.30pm
What to wear: Pink (caps, hats, glasses, sunglasses and accessories are recommended)
What to bring: Anyone who supports the freedom of LGBT Singaporeans to love

What to expect: Pink umbrellas will be provided with a donation; the human pink dot will be formed by around 5pm and a photograph will be taken from a vantage point nearby.

To pledge your attendance, please click here
For updates, please join Pink Dot Sg on facebook
For queries, please email pinkdotsg@yahoo.com

This event is 100% legal; no registration is required.

2009-05-06T05:11:00.002+08:00

I once told a friend of mine, that life is not perfect if there's no problem in it. In order for it to be perfect, you must face some problem. Cause if there's no problem in life.... then that is not Life. Every life, there lies a problem.... but with every problem there lies a solution cause god is fair.

But its actually up to us as an individual to look for the solution... cause all of us have a choice to make... its either u choose to, or u choose not to. but then again the decision is urs. Being wise is not as easy nor its not impossible..... With the faith of god (if u have one) everything is Possible.

Actually, as i am typing this, im also wondering... why the heck am i wasting time typing all this nonsense! lol.....

Anyway im here to update la.... but i just have no idea what to update.... well.. anyway... im sooo looking forward for this coming 13May.... no its not my bdae... but its the day tat im gonna celebrate with my masyam....We've been together for almost 5mths now and its still holding strong. Though we often fight and have alot of misunderstanding.... we are still holding on. To be honest and truth.... this is the most challenging relationship that im experiencing out of my 8 years of being a homosexuallity.... but there's no way im gonna give up....like what i mention above... "Every life, there lies a problem.... but with every problem there lies a solution cause god is fair." keep moving forward....

Im already thankful and happy with what i have now.... i feel almost complete..... well wat more do i want? hmmm i actually want to make as many friends as possible... in malay there's a phrase "Pergi ke warung membeli makan.... Sesudah makan, pinggan di basoh, Biarlah kita mencari rakan.... janganlah kita membuat musuh"....

i also wanna thank my masyam for being there for me when i need him... also who force me to spurt my problem out and stressing the message to me that he is willing to hear me out... and for that im grateful and lucky to have u as my guy...

well i think i say enough.. cause im kinda lazy to type things out.. so yea.. till then...

signing off
Dzul'Anderlade Junior

Uji Bakat untuk Anugerah 2009

2009-05-04T01:36:00.003+08:00

haha, would like to congrats zulhelmi hasbi for making thru the 1st round of Audition for Anugerah 2009 that was held at East Point on 2nd May 2009. and also we wish him all the best for the UPCOMING audition...... PONDAN POWER org kate... lol....

2009-05-01T07:06:00.001+08:00

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2009-04-29T04:49:00.001+08:00

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Everything i have is LOST.....

2009-04-26T13:32:00.002+08:00

its about time for me to declare tat ive lost in this life. Its getting meaningless every single day, There was once a gentlemen told me tat "There is no obstacles bigger than a man, as god gives us test and hardship for many reasons. but never will he gives us those that are too big for us to overcome. thus we are strong enough to solve and go thru whatever that comes our way." But i wonder if its really true.... if it is... howcome im facing an obstacle tat sumtime can be as big as a mountain... if small problem keep on showing up... and if it stack on each other... sooner or later it will get bigger.... bigger for u to overcome it....

Well im not proud of anything but facing the fact that im dying in 7 years time due to my blood disorder, there are still some ass hole who want to ruin my life by spreading rumours that im HIV+ and have std.

My life is already Ruin and now they are trying to ruin my reputation too???

i cant sleep at night, eat my meals just bcause of this problems cause it get me thinking, what wrong have i done to deserve this treatment!

It easy for ppl to say "Just forget about it" or "dont think to much about it" but its literally difficult to do tat.... cause u might not knw what will this ppl be talking about next.

Im grateful and thankful to all my friends who have been supporting me and giving me the comfort that i need, especially to my lovely masyam.... but im sad to say tat till the case is not settle, ur comfort and support is just not enough to ease my mind.......but i do appreciate it....

well thats not the only problem im facing, another big problems i have is financial wise. I m still looking for Job.... i need money to support my self but recession period simply ruin alot of job opportunity. i dun want my masyam to think tat im treating him like ATM, cause im NOT.... haiz...

Life is simply sux arh.. really....
now my masyam need his own time... and i got no ONe to comfort me.... haiz...

signing off
AyiE

An outing tat ease one mind

2009-03-28T00:52:00.001+08:00

Okie... been a long time since i hang around with my NS friends... those ppl who entertain me throughout the PBOC and SSO courses.... one of them is staying so closed to me but yet we rarely meet up. So since today there's an opportunity for us to meet up... we decided too... just to catch up on some things..... we had our early dinner at long john and then walk all the way to one fullurton starbuck and hang around there...

it was kinda fun.... well suprisingly it does ease my mind....

anyhooos.... im logging off nw
kinda tired... EARTH HOUR IS TMR! DO NOT FORGET TO VOTE FOR EARTH!

signing off
AyiE

Ku Bertanya

2009-03-26T14:52:00.000+08:00

Adakah diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah cintaku kau tak perlu lagi
Adakah dirimu dah berubah hati terhadap diriku

Adakah insan lain bertakhta di hatimu
Hinggakan dirimu mengubah cintamu
Manakah janjimu yang kau beri dulu kepada diriku

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta

Sayangku dengarlah rintihan hatiku
Ingin kau kembali seperti dahulu
Kenangan di jiwa membuat ku rindu kepada dirimu

Kau pernah berkata cintamu adalah selama-lamanya
Bulan menjadi saksi pada malam itu
Kau kata kau cinta

Kiranya diriku kau tak perlu lagi
Simpanlah kenangan cinta kita di hati
Walaupun sukar, ku akur kali ini
Biarlah ku pergi

Maafkanlah ku bertanya

2009-03-26T12:57:00.004+08:00

In support of Earth Hour. iBlog will remain Dark for the next 1 week.
This year, a world global election is taking place, An election between earth and global warming.
Its not about what country you're from but what planet you're from.
Your Light switch is your vote.
We're aiming for 1 Billion vote for earth. Because our planet is worth saving.
Vote earth by simply switching off your light for 1 hour.
and Join the world for Earth Hour.

Saturday March 28, from 8.30pm to 9.30pm

Bring your picnic rug and food basket to enjoy a simple and fun time with us, as we witness the first ever blackout of buildings in Singapore!

Date: 28th March 2009
Time: 5:00pm-9:30pm
Venue: Esplanade Park

5.00pm – Opening of the Green Carnival
5.30pm - Dawn Syndrome Association dance performance, Lila Drums Djembe Project and Miss Earth eco-fashion show among other groups
7.30pm- Concert hosted by Gold 90.5FM DJs and performances by Reverie, Dawn Ho, Michaela Therese & Wynne Sandosham of Soul Circle
8.30pm – Earth Hour countdown and lights off!
Followed by another hour of concert in the dark hosted by Gold 90.5FM DJs!

Free of charge! - No registration required

Earth Hour Event:
Sponsored by SingTel,
In partnership with
Leo Burnett, Microsoft, NParks, Starcom, Weber Shandwick,
Supported by EcoSingapore, Gold 90.5FM and Scouts Association of Singapore.

Earth Hour 2009 by WWF - Sign up for Earth Hour!

2009-03-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

haha i just took a quiz and this is all about me... and its rather true... weird... but indeed its the truth....

View on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-03-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

Ive always wanted to go on a honey moon with my hubby... and guess wat... it gonna come true. This year for the first time i celebrate my birthday, im gonna celebrate it at a resort in batam with my HUBBY as a holiday vacation/honey moon for us! oh gosh, this will be the BEST birthday present im gonna have! well lets not put on hope yet... cause i dunno if the plan will come to reality but hell im excited!!! here's the preview of the resort tat ill be going with my sweet lil brownie.....

well i gtg...

signing off
ayie

2009-03-02T14:12:00.004+08:00

Well on the 23rd Feb 2009, out of d blue moon, Brownie plan to go for Ubin trip... well was kinda suprised but oh well, its my kind of thing, adventuring... so why not right.... so we planned to go on 1st march but instead the plan have to be brought forward to 28 feb instead.
So... on the 28feb... WE DID go for the trip to UBIN... lol.. im really AMAZED that brownie plan actually came into reality! nt saying that his plan always failed but.. most of the time i guess... LOL... fickle minded boy! oh well i still love him! LOL....

Anyway went there around afternoon, took the bum boat ($2.50, pay to the boat man) and head towards ubin... it was kinda nice to ride on the bum boat... if only the weather is sunny... cause i was kinda drizzling when were on it...but still i enjoyed it...

so upon reaching Ubin... we took the map and rent a bicycle... well... for safety reason, we took erm a good quality bike.. obviously the rental wud be a lil bit more expensive... $10per bike. cause to me, when come adventuring... safety is always first. so we took the wheeler... wanted to rent the Giant... but to think again.. its only for a day... so yay! we got a bike... it was kinda funny seeing my hubby ride the bike... cause erm the bike is rather big and tall and OBVIOUSLY he is short.... LOL.....

We wonder around the island on our bike and after 3hours of exhausting ride, we headed back to the main land....

we decided to head to home.. to wash up and meet again in the evening for dinner... he was soooo excited cause he thought of bringing me to a Steam boat at Chong Pang which located @ Kallang. so i meet up brownie again at 7.30pm kallang... and we headed to the SO CALL chong pang steam boat... LOL... and when we reach.... to our suprise... the shop was not there... wait... not only the shop... but!!! the BUILDING!! was no longer there.... LOL.... well i can understand if the shop have close down or move.... but not the BUILDING it self... its like... one day u go to dhoby ghaut and thought of going to plaza singapura.... when u reach... the PLAZA SINGAPURA is not there... only flat land.... WEIRD rite? yet hilarious... and u shud see brownie expression he was like... so paiseh... and cute... hehehe... and he ask me where to head now...

so we head to orchard.. taking a cab there and i tell u i cant stop laughing thinking abt a building tat gone missing! lol.....

and oh ya... we head to center point to eat... with CONFIDENT, he claim tat there's a KFC there... cause initally i wanted to eat KFC cause of cheese fries... BUT there WASNT any KFC there.. lol.. so we choose long John instead... so yea... tats abt it.. so after we ate... we meet up with alfian and wan... and lepak at SMU.... and god.. by then im feeling soooooo LETHARGIC.... hahaz... so we headed home... taking the night rider.... oh well tat's about it.... the rest i leave it up to the pic for explanation.. afterall picture says a thousand words...

signing off AyiE.

2009-02-12T12:23:00.005+08:00

i knw i haven been updating my blog... so now im trying to. lol... but the question is... whats there for me to update?? WELL ever since i started working... my life will be erm... very.... boring.... MONDAY TO FRIDAY, work from 10am to 3pm. then go home, check my mail, online msn and wait till masyam go back home, cam with him, talk to him on phone and off to bed.... LOL... boring i knw.... but i did have some fun on the weekend, by going to mum hse or even meet up with my masyam! erm....well i guess tats all for NOW... erm below are some pic for u to view... lol....

Gift for my masyam, on our 2nd mth anniversary cum valentine

Karaoke with my sis and her boi @ my mum hse... LOL... and lastly... tanning with my masyam! hehe....

signing off
AyiE

2009-02-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

The last of FABULOUS....
Coming up next.... SUPERSTAR SUNDAY! @ ZIRCA!
the only EVENT @ ZIRCA that allow 18 and above to attend!

2009-01-26T11:41:00.003+08:00

Heya ppl! haha, gawd i knw its been along time since i updated my blog and been receiving alot of complaint from some of my reader... asking me to update my blog.. lol.. okie here's an update for u then! ive been feeling happy and sad for the past few days, also got my self a new job and my masyam have been there for me when i need! hahaz

anyway, went out with masyam and friends yesterday... an outing @ sentosa! lol... was hoping to get sun tanned, but the sun never show up... lol.... u knw wat i mean... so we just laze around, play frisbee or knwn as flying saucer to masyam.. LOL... and mandi laut!.... was quite exhausted though.. lol... anyway im still tired and later on going st james! hahaz... well gtg...

signing off
AyiE

2009-01-09T12:56:00.002+08:00

Visited bie yesterday, gawd.. i felt pity by just looking at him...but im happy for my self cause i make the effort and time just to visit him... and also got the chance to see his mom... hehee... bie, i hope u recover very soon aite.... well he gonna be discharged in like a few hours time and hope he will have enough rest....

4 more days to 13, counting down.....

luv u bie! Muackx....

signing off
AyiE

2009-01-08T05:28:00.001+08:00

in 2 hours time... my syg will be going through his operation, i shall pray for him for the best. i luv u bie... muacks...

signing off
AyiE

2009-01-08T05:14:00.002+08:00

I... am a cancerian... and this is the defination of cancer...

the sign Cancer is symbolized by the Crab.
Your sign's element is Water. Cancer is ruled by the moon
You are emotional, intuitive, sympathetic and moody. You enjoy shopping and visiting with friends. Cancer is sentimental, sensitive, and needs to have a sense of security. Cancer may be interested in politics even if it's only on the local level. You tend to over protect what is yours. Cancer is intensely romantic and has a vivid imagination. Your home and family are very important to you.
Possible negative aspects of the sign Cancer:
You can be cruel, grasping, weak, possessive, domineering, timid, lazy and tend toward brooding and cynicism.

My bf is a libra.... and this is libra defination.
The sign Libra is symbolized by the balanced Scales.
Your sign's element is Air. Libra is ruled by the planet Venus
You are naturally refined and neat. Libra has a strong sense of good taste and a desire for peace. Attractive surroundings are necessary for peace of mind. Libra is very fair and just and tries to maintain a proper balance. Libra is artistic, musical, level headed, sympathetic, perceptive and generous. Manners and other niceties are important to Libra. You have a strong need to share with others.
Possible negative aspects of the sign Libra:
You can be gossipy, critical, and bitter. You like to pry into other peoples affairs, and you can be very moody at times...

lol... signing off
AyiE

2009-01-06T15:28:00.002+08:00

Ok... ive been a good boy lately by staying at home.. but HEY am always good rite? (watever eh ayie) Im jobless and been trying my best to seek for job but luck is always not on my side. Well i need money to support my self as everyone knws, im not supported by my parents execpt my brownie... but then honestly, i feel guilty for letting him tanggung my financial.. so things have to change... i gotta work to support my self, i cant always depend on him and i shall not take advantage of him. And also... im rather worried for him... well going ops on thursday and up till date, he is still not feeling well... haiz... rashes la, batok la, flu la...

bie.. pls take care of ur self...

anyway i miss those days where u will sms me before u mkn, sms me when u reach home, sms me asking if im alright and sms me good morning greetings... where have all those days gone? im not saying anything ... i just miss it....

and last night due to my lung infection... i gt difficulties in breathing sia... feel like asking sumone to shaft a blower in my lung and blow air so that my lung can be filled... LOL..and my chest was so painful like as if ive been shot by taurus 85 .38caliber revolver! yea... haiz.... get well soon ayie (am saying this to my self cause nobody is saying it to me) and get well soon syg and all the best for the ops..... Muackx... luv u soo much.... i knw u knw that....

signing off
AyiE

2009-01-02T08:50:00.004+08:00

If it didn't bring you joy
just leave it behind
Let's ring in the new year
with good things in mind

Let every bad memory
that brought heartache and pain
And let's turn a new leaf
with the smell of new rain

Let's forget past mistakes
making amends for this year
Posting you these greetings
to bring you hope and cheers...

Happy new Year.....

New year celebration with brownie was a blast! honestly I didnt expect my lil brownie to ask me out even though ive been hoping for it... lol... anyway watch fireworks with brownie and friends at the esplanade.... and im telling you, the crowd management there is totally sux to the core.. almost pick a fight with the certis cisco police officer... our belonging and friends are at esplanade and this stupid officer refuse to let us enter esplanade premises... wtf right? lol... and after the fire work... meet up with brownie tarian member.... they are fun! i like hanging out with them... lol.... make me laugh till my ball goes to my throat to shut me off.... lol... anyway my latest resolution for this year is to make this year better then any other past year.... and i start my new year with a happy one... and i hope it shall remain for the remaining years....

Happy new year to my brownie and readers..

and i love u loads my brownie... and thanks....

Here's the video of the firework.. god u can hear brownie saying happy new year no. of times... let us watch and count how many times he say happy new year... LOL...

signing off
AyiE

2008-12-31T10:37:00.003+08:00

Another year, another chance
To start our lives anew;
This time we’ll leap old barriers
To have a real breakthrough.

We’ll take one little step
And then we’ll take one more,
Our unlimited potential
We’ll totally explore.

We’ll show off all our talents
Everyone will be inspired;
(Hmm…while I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired.)

We’ll give up all bad habits;
We’ll read and learn a lot,
All our goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not.

Its a mistake ive made that i'll never forgive my self, new year is here and i am really hoping to start everything a new.... ive made a mistake to my brownie and i've ask for forgiveness but up till now, i feel so different... i dun feel the same as how u treated me last time. you may have lost ur trust in me, u may found someone new... but u wud be still the same brownie that i once knew.

It will be a great loss for me if i were to lose u, is like a body without a soul... but for the sake of love, i shall respect the decision you have make if you have.

i find it useless crying every single night... but i just cant help it. everytime i look at the pic of us having fun for the past 2 weeks, i cant help it but to cry. Was hoping to celebrate the new year with you but it seems you have made ur plan and i shall respect it.

Everynight is a sleepless night, doing tonnes of reflection... shed gallons of tears... killing more brain cell as i think back on the mistakes that ive done to you.

I really love you bie, if i had one wish, i wud turn back in time to stop this. its killing me.

wish u a great new year dear.

anyway went to check up on the 29 of decemember and the result was bad. but who cares anyway if i were to die soon? im willing to sacrifies my 8 years spending time with brownie instead of alone... but i dun think god will grant me tat wish since things happen. but haiz... i will still live it up to the fullest... Doctor says im having a lung infection and years go by, i may have others organ failure till the day i die as my blood disorderness continue. like i say, who wud cares? My dad who hates me? My sister who supports my dad? my mum who only thinks of drugs? i dunno... i dun even knw if anyone out there stil care for me.... i dunno....

anyway as im posting this blog post i sheding more tears... dah bengkak pon mater... so i gtg..

signing off
AyiE

2008-12-27T16:41:00.002+08:00

Here's the latest update... christmas party at Gabby o is Cool... haha.. god i was drunk.. LOL..
well more pic coming up....

signing off
AyiE...

LOVE MY BROWNIE VERY MUCH...

2008-12-24T14:13:00.001+08:00

Haiz... im sooo nt in the mood for everthing la.... am pissed....

signing off
AyiE

2008-12-21T19:43:00.001+08:00

"Don't let go, keep holding on.
Don't say no, This isn't wrong.

I need you, and I can't forget.
This feeling that you make me get.

Maybe I should let go, and say good-bye.
But, we have a chance, there's no reason why.

Do you love me too? Or is it just a line?
A line to choke down with sour red wine?

The taste of your warm lips, crashing down on mine.
As our hearts and bodies intertwine.

They say you aren't right, but that's my choice.
They can't make up my mind, they can't take my voice.

So, I ask you now, I've made up my mind.
Do you promise and swear to always be mine?"

2008-12-19T06:43:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was an enjoyable yet memorable day for me and brownie.. hehe.. gawd everyday is a new day and exciting day.... making me feel very anxious the moment i open my eye from my beauty sleep.... My lil brownie is still not feeling well and im rather worried for him... brought him to TTSH yesterday and the doc says he have a throat infection and gave him loads of medication... ah amik ko obat... lol... and after tat went to makan at marina food loaf...

and u knw what.. nvr in my life i appreciated a guy sooo much like my lil brownie and there will be no way that im gonna take advantage of him... for he have help me alot... i can say tat he is a true guy tat ive been searching all this while.... cause he met all the requirement tat i have in guy.. lol... only thing is tat his puntuality... i can tell u... haiz hancur! ello bie.. i waited for u like 1hour 15min yesterday can? hahaz... but understand... org sakit kan... so tak leh di salah kan...

saturday going out again with brownie! weee.... and god knws where were heading to... always impromtu plan... lol....

k la... i guess i gtg.... to my readers... i knw i sound mushy on every sentence on my blog.. but i cant help it.... im deeply in love with my brownie

and as for my brownie..... ur sweet so pls take care of ur self and get well soon bie...

signing off
AyiE.....

2008-12-17T08:11:00.000+08:00

Am doing this out of boredome but with love.... lol... y am i editting his picture! urgh shud be editting mine! nt his! aiyo...

signing off
AyiE

Missing u loads bie...

2008-12-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

yay.... i have fullfill my new year resolution even before new year it self... which is to settle down of course... since im attached... there are a few promises i have to make to my self..... first and for most... i gotta die down on clubbing UNLESS my hubby is with me... cause urgh... there's still some guy asking my no. la and also flirting with me... and i feel rather guilty if i were to follow the flow... and knowing im attached... so yea.. gotta die down on clubbing.... also gotta stop logging in to my guys for men acct. cause i see no point of me logging in there since i gt my brownie... and oh ya... no more IRC for me... my funtime is over! weee~...

u knw wat bie... im happy with all the things i have now and with u around... im always feel secure and also feel beloved.... though u gotta improve on ur puntuality!! ahahaz...

and yea... ur going for ur ops on january... so please take care of ur self k...

There's not a word tat can describe my love for u.... oh gawd.... im so thanking him for making me knowing u... muackx.. luv u dear..

signing off
AyiE

2008-12-16T03:21:00.000+08:00

2008-12-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

Oh gawd... my lil brownie make his effort to meet me after his work! im so touch... he sooo sweet la.... but kecian dier.... penat.... and damn he look damn hot la in his Uniform... hehee...
also mommy gabby'o is there.... mak ayam nyah.... slalu ader kan kalau anak ikan ader... wakakaka...

gawd my lil brownie so cute.... i can count my self as the luckiest person living on earth to have him by my side...

anyway am tooo tired... ill update soon...

Signing off
AyiE....

Loving my Brownie more as time pass....

2008-12-14T06:14:00.002+08:00

Gawd... been going out with my lil brownie since FRIDAY! and damn im enjoying every moment of it especially with Mommy gabby'o and zul t.m is around! well lets recall wat we did on friday... december 12.... hmmm oh ya... went to mustaffa center cause brownie need to look for his victoria secret body mist... lol... sampai ke mustaffa center kepe.... and as usual... he was late... well at least not 2 hours late! this time is only 45minutes!... lol... zul have to wait for him 30minutes.... Syg.. syg... ini lah org kater.... janji melayu... LOL.....

anyway after that... we headed to Bugis... and damn i was starving.... once reaching... we waited for rykle... but ended up... Mazlan came first.... (didnt expect him to show up) so we headed to the chicken rice stall to eat!

HEAVEN fell right on earth... finally get to eat.... so while eating... rykle arrived and my lil brownie go and fetch him at the MRT station.... after eating... we headed to Haji lane for our shissha session... and on the way... we waited for tini near raffles hospital...

and so we had our shisha session and gabby'o arrive at 1am.... and we had another shisha and ate some turkish food... LOL...

anyway we lepak till 3am and headed out to city hall to catch our night rider... and then home sweet home......

Well the next following day.... went outing with my lil brownie again... and then headed to club.... and yerp we are officially together! Weeee..... anyway by now... im already feeling lethargic... and yes am getting some sleep.... hehe... will update soon....

signign off
AyiE

2008-12-13T05:59:00.002+08:00

AFter 3years of single.... gawd i guess he have answered my prayer... he have given me once again the opportunity to love and be loved.... i finally found someone who i think im settling down with.... Though the guy im with is flirtatious.... but slowly i have to gain trust in him.... isnt that wat relationship is all about.... trusting each other.... and also being sincere, loyal and commitment must be presence in relationship... anyway the guy im with is Arief.... my cute lil brownie... sooner or later this blog will be made private to prevent any controversy.... anyway here is my lil devilicangel....

Gawd i love him...

signing off
AyiE

2008-12-11T21:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the most memorable and fun night i have... and i would really love to thank Gabby'O from the btm of my heart.... he who have spend his precious off day with me for more then 12 freaking hours la! tats the most wonderful thing tat ANY of my friends have done! Well.. we went out at 5pm... and then we headed home at 6AM! wow im telling u... i had a fucking great time! PUAS dok! Hilang semuer stress aku....Well we went jln2 from raffles city to marina square.. then off to BUGIS... looking for my boots.... hahaz.. and then impromtu plan... went to Haji lane and have shissha session la sey... gawd i got high while having the mix fruit mint shissha... lol.... how i wish arief was there.... i bet things will get erm... OUT OF CONTROL... lol.... we had 2 shissha.. one is the strawberry mint and the second was the Mix fruit mint..... also order potato wedge and dunno god knows what i drink.. it taste like hollic though... anyway we lepak at tat area till 2am and we decided to walk down to orchard road la.... trying to see the NIGHT life in singapore... and gawd i tell u... ITS boring la.... after awhile we got hungry again and we headed down to the coffee club at somerset.. which open 24hrs.... hahaz... order red wine and some food.... erm.... wait wat did i order eh... i forgot.... but all of this is with the courtesy of Gabby'O... my mommy... LOL... we stayed there till 4am and decided to move on towards dhoby ghaut.... our plan is to waste our time while waiting for the first train by lepaking at the fort canning... then we decided to go to istana park instead... and play with the pond... hahaz... very refreshing...lol... we chatted and share some of our problems.... and some of our experience.. erherm if u knw what i mean... LOL.... yea... and then we took the first train at 6.07am towards Jurong East... Gabby'o alight at toa payoh while i continue my journey towards Yew tee.... here are some of the pic.... we took... hehe

And oh ya! im suppose to meet my officer SSSGT Pek today at 10... but due to the outing yesterday.. i was soooooo lethargic and slep all the way till like wat 10? haha.. was panic at the moment so msg my lil brownie telling him im soooo late... and then i msg my sir.. lol....my sir say meet him after lunch at 2.. then ok lor.. carry on sleeping.... till 1... KELANGKABUT mandi and siap2..... at last i met him at 3pm la..... and this is wat he gave me.....

My dischargement letter and most important thing is my IC la sey!!! WOOOOT.. i got back my ic... anyway i was hoping my lil brownie to meet with me soon.. cause i missed him too much.. and i think im thinking too much abt it.... "RELAX AYIE... RELAX...."

well gotta go dudes
Signing off
AyiE

2008-12-09T14:53:00.001+08:00

Okok.. i knw.. its been a long time since i last blog..... hmmm.. melacca trip was postpone till next week i guess due to the celebration of Aidil Adha... Well... Before i begin posting... wud like to wish all the muslim Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha...

Anyway Hari Raya have always been a boring occasion for me.... i think i have to accept the fact that im growing OLDER... urgh.. tell me abt it... anyway took some pic yesterday... not many but a few... hahaz... well basically its either pic of me... me and my sis or me sis, mom and step dad.. hehe....

Yea tats me now! ugly i knw! hahaz....

Me and my family.. My step dad, Mum, Sis and me...

The siblers.. lol..

And a candid shot taken at Jurong East Interchange.. hahaz....

Anyway after visiting my mum hse.. decided to lepak with my friends... gosh waited for arief for bloody 2 hours la..... lucky gabby came earlier.... so went around vivo... hahaz... anyway seriously im lazy to type wat happen or where we went la... hahaz... sry u cant blame my laziness.. haha...

anyway... FABULOUS high school.. oh yea i will be there!!!

Guess WAT IM GONNA WEAR! u wont believe it! wanna knw? COME AND JOIN ME! hahaaz...

signing off
AyiE

AyiE is RECYCLING!

2008-11-23T09:10:00.003+08:00

2008-11-02T14:28:00.002+08:00

Im a gay activist and today post actually have been inspired by "http://arr-thegummybear.blogspot.com/".....

Nowadays, some people just do not understand the meaning of a true friend... or shall i say... do not understand the meaning of Friendship. here is the defination of "friend" for those of you who are dumb enough who do not knw the meaning of "friend" and it is adapted from OXFORD UNIVERSITY DICTIONARY.

friend

(frěnd)

A person whom one knows, likes, accept, understand and trusts each other no matter who they are.
A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

Take a look at no. 1 and 4 (bold) Friend is a person who knows, likes and wat important is ACCEPT each other no matter who they are, cause friends will always be the main source and the only person who shall be by your side when you are having problems. If one cant accept another for who they are... then simply they are not friends...

after reading the above mentioned blog (http://arr-thegummybear.blogspot.com)... it clearly state that this particular hetero do not understand the meaning of friendship... i mean, so what if his friend is gay? there is no particular reason on why "he"
must post such things... to promote hatred?? take a look at this sentence adapt/quote from his blog.... "I ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE! I TOLD YOU! I ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE!" hahahaaz... from your point of view (my reader) do you actually think tat this guy accept who his friend is? if he does, he shouldnt even post tat blog and bring down his friend reputation.... and by doing this... he who post such blog also can consider GAY... hahaz... phatetic but true...

another quote "SYAFIQ IS A BLOODY STUPID GAY! uh, go uh cry.. cryy loud loud! panggil aku tak berhati perot! CALL ME THAT AND I KILL YOU!!" how gay can someone be by insulting other party over blog? that is true gay enough... to much attention seeking bitch.... hahaz... instead of feeling sad, i feel stupid for reading such post.... oh well.. i do laught it out loud... but i pity the person who have been insulted....

seriously... if there is alot of people living in this world behaving like tat, i shall see no love exist in this world. and yes, u! (http://arr-thegummybear.blogspot.com/) wanna talk abt religion and family matters? do u even have the right to talk about it? ask your self... are you the god that create this world? do u knw how much sins does feeq carries? are u the one who decided if he were to go to Neraka jahanam or Syurga? the answer to it is simply NO! and also... are you the one who carry him for 9mths? are you the one who support him financially giving him food and breast milk when he is young? are you the one who bought all his clothing? are you... again the answer is NO.... so do you have the right to judge people on who they are.. again NO... do you have the right to talk abt other people religion and family matter again... the answer is NO!... get it?

Now.... (http://www.arr-thegummybear.blogspot.com) i personally challenge you to read this following article if you are really care and concern over your friend.... read ESPECIALLY no. 9 to 13! and if you have notice khai... there's not even one vulgarities in this blog post... MULUT KITE ORG TAK KOTOR MCM MULUT KAU......and also please khai... stop being homophobic or homophobia... its because of this "Gay sons and daughter are faced with rejection and dogmatism at home or outside and it's no wonder that they would distance themselves from their families and friends.... it's your lossm fight homophobia today khai...

1. What exactly is homosexuality?

Homosexuality is the tendency wherein the persons you find sexually attractive happen to be persons of the same sex as yourself.

Bear in mind however, that a homosexual person does not find all others of the same sex attractive. Only a few. After all, a heterosexual person does not find all opposite sex persons attractive either. But a homosexual person finds that all the people he is ever attracted to, happen to be of the same sex, just as a heterosexual person finds that all the people he is ever attracted to, happen to be of the opposite sex.

Sexual attraction goes hand in hand with a desire for a relationship and love. Homosexual persons yearn for love and a relationship with persons they are attracted to. Other than the fact that the persons they are attracted to happen to be of the same sex, the qualities in their relationships are no different than in heterosexual relationships, e.g. emotional commitment, mutual support and a desire for permanence. This can be seen from the strong desire in many countries to have laws changed to recognise same-sex marriages.

2. Why do some people think they are homosexual?

This question is a misguided question. When we use the word "think", we imply that it is not true, and that someone is misleading himself. Homosexual persons do not "think" they are homosexual. They know they are homosexual.

They know this because they can recognise their own feelings. They do not feel sexually attracted to people of the opposite sex. Every time they have a crush, it's with a person of the same sex. They do not experience similar feelings for persons of the opposite sex.

Related to this question is another, "Why do some people choose to be homosexual?"

This question is even more misguided. No homosexual person ever chooses to be homosexual. He simply discovers from his own feelings that he is. He has never made that "choice" in life, and as we will discuss below, he cannot "unchoose" it.

It is now widely accepted by scientific, psychiatric and medical professionals that homosexual orientation is innate, and fundamental to a some persons' nature. It is increasingly accepted that homosexual orientation is latent in the child, and possibly even in the foetus. It is not something that people change into during their teenage or adult years as a result of certain "bad influences". Certainly it is never something that people deliberately or consciously choose to become.

It is also widely accepted by thinking people that homosexuality is normal variation among humans. Just as some people are by nature left-handed, others are musically talented or extrovert, so some people are homosexual.

3. What causes a person to be homosexual?

The main answer right now is that we don't know the precise reasons, though it is a field of study that is receiving more and more unbiased attention. Studies conducted so far point increasingly to a substantial biological basis for homosexuality, but environmental influences in early childhood may be a factor too (not the sole cause).

(a) Genetic causes?
There is increasing evidence that it may be partly genetic. For example, it is found that when one son is gay, his brothers have a higher chance of being homosexual too. A homosexual identical twin (who shares the same genes with his twin) has the highest likelihood of having a homosexual brother.
Other articles in Yawning Bread provide more information on recent scientific discoveries. Use the search function to locate them.

(b) Other biological causes?
There is also increasing evidence of hormonal factors acting on the foetus. There is some tentative evidence that the brain structure in homosexual persons is different from heterosexual persons, and that this difference in brain structure arose from brain development in foetal life.
The most likely cause for differences in brain development is that of hormonal balance while in the womb. There is evidence that this hormonal balance of the foetus would have been affected by the hormonal balance of the pregnant mother.
Other articles in Yawning Bread provide more information on recent scientific discoveries. Use the search function to locate them.
(c) Upbringing?
On the other hand, evidence for upbringing as a factor is non-existent, despite a century of searching by people attached to this idea. The first problem is that "upbringing" is a very vague and general term. When I press my questioners to be more specific, they tend to bring up two old ideas which I will deal with below:
(d) Distant father, domineering mother?
This is an old idea that has no credible research supporting it. It is conjecture that comes from the idea that homosexual males are somehow feminised by an overdominant mother, while the father as the male role model is absent.
The problem with this conjecture is that it assumes that homosexual males are feminised. This is contradicted by the simple observation that the vast majority of homosexual males are as masculine as heterosexual males.
People who have made a serious study of homosexuality generally consider this notion to be without basis.
(e) Being molested when young?
This is another old idea without any credible data.
It comes from the mistaken assumption that people are innately heterosexual, but are "converted" to homosexuality through bad experiences, or through exposure to other homosexual persons during their formative years.
It is contradicted by the increasing evidence of a biological basis for homosexuality.
It is also contradicted by the fact that the vast majority of homosexual persons do not have any experiences of being molested, just like the vast majority of heterosexual persons.
Of the unfortunate few who have been molested by others of the same sex, some have turned out to be homosexual, while others have turned out to be heterosexual. Of those who have been molested by people of the opposite sex, some have turned out to be homosexual too, but others heterosexual. No observable pattern has ever been shown.
(f) Mixing around with other homosexual people?
A person does not become homosexual because he has homosexual friends. Likewise, a homosexual person will not turn heterosexual even when he mixes with heterosexual persons. Sexual orientation, either way, is pretty much fixed in any particular person.
Even children and teenagers do not turn homosexual just because they mix with homosexual adults. After all, the great majority of adults that children mix with are heterosexual. Is it logical that just because they get to know one, or even more than one, adult who is homosexual, it will forever change the child's future sexuality?

4. At what age do most homosexual persons become homosexual?

Again, a misguided question. No one "becomes" homosexual. Most homosexual persons report that they discover they are homosexual sometime during their teenage years. A smaller number report that they have known they were different from their peers since around 9 or 10, though at that age, they couldn't fully comprehend or put a name to that difference.

On the other hand, there are homosexual persons who repress their homosexuality for years. Mostly it is due to social pressure to conform, and to the lack of information in the society in which they live. They may get married and have children. But then at some point in their lives, they realise that they have never really felt anything for the opposite sex, while their feelings for the same sex never goes away. At that point in their lives, they finally recognise their own homosexuality.

To outsiders it would look like he suddenly "turned" homosexual. In fact, he has always been homosexual, only that he has denied it all this while.

5. How can a homosexual person change?

He can't.

Many homosexuals, wanting to escape social pressure, have tried. There has been no properly documented case of anyone succeeding.

Yes, there are documented cases of people who have psyched themselves into denial (almost always, these examples have come from the fundamentalist Christian groups), but there is no documented case of a person changing his feelings of attraction. Mental health professionals today consider these attempts (often called 'reparative therapy') by cult-like groups to change orientation to be abuse and warn of damage to the mental health of participants.

Sexual orientation is too fundamental in our nature to be changed. You cannot change homosexuals into heterosexuals. Nor vice versa.

6. What can psychiatrists do?

They can't change anyone's sexual orientation.

But a few homosexual persons can benefit from counselling and professional help. These are the ones who, feeling the burden of societal pressure, get very depressed, and maybe even reach the point of suicide. Professionals can help them see their situation in a more positive light, and improve their self-esteem.

However, the vast majority of homosexual persons do not need professional help. They are well-adjusted, self-confident people. Psychologically, they cope quite well despite prejudice and discrimination from society.

7. How do I persuade him to mix more with the opposite sex?

Why do you want to persuade him to mix more with the opposite sex? Are you hoping that he will turn heterosexual? As I said above, sexual orientation can't be changed.

By trying to "persuade" homosexual persons to do this or do that, you are showing disrespect to a person's right to choose his friends freely. How would you like to have others pressure you to do things that don't interest you? You'd see that as an unwarranted imposition.

8. Are all gay men effeminate and all lesbian women tomboyish?

No.

The reason society often has this stereotype is because most homosexual men and women are indistinguishable from heterosexual persons. Only the tiny minority who happen to be effeminate or tomboyish, are visible. So society has taken the visible tip of the iceberg and wrongly extended the stereotype to all.

By the way, some effeminate men are heterosexual. Some tomboyish women are heterosexual.

In any case, what is wrong with having feminine or masculine mannerisms? In themselves, there is nothing wrong, is there? What may be the problem is the disapproval of other (unenlightened) people around. But the problem should be fixed at source, which is to enlighten those people rather than infringe on the self-autonomy of gays and lesbians with feminine/masculine mannerisms and outlook.

9. Do homosexual people wish to go for a sex change?

No.

People who wish to go for sex change are transsexuals, not homosexuals. Transsexuals identify with a gender that is opposite to their bodies. For example, someone could be anatomically male, but feel very much a woman inside. Quite often transsexuals prefer to cross-dress, in keeping with the image they have of themselves.

Homosexual males consider themselves male, the same way as heterosexual males. They do not feel female at all. Homosexual females (i.e. lesbians), likewise consider themselves female. There is no conflict between their anatomical self and their sense of gender.

10. Why does my son, daughter, brother, sister or friend want to tell me that that he is homosexual? Why isn't he ashamed of it?

Generally, homosexual persons wish to ensure that those who are important to them have a clear and truthful idea of who they are. It may take them a long time and a lot of worrying to reach this point. But ultimately, they find that their sense of self-respect is such that they do not wish to live a lie any further.

For a homosexual person to tell others about his sexual orientation is a huge risk. He risks rejection and emotional chaos. If he has chosen to tell you, it is a sign that you are important to him. It is a long-standing truism that we are honest with those we love. You should feel honoured by his choice and you should feel a sense of responsibility to stand by him.

The truth does not make him or her any less your son, daughter, brother, sister or friend. He is still the same person as before, except that now he has given you a special gift, the gift of privileged honesty.

When he has reached this point, far from feeling guilt or shame, which is what society tends to put into homosexual persons, he has overcome it, and restored his self-respect. He has seen his own value as a person; he no longer subjugates himself to the ignorance and prejudice around him. That act of telling you is an act of liberation.

There are a few first-hand coming-out stories in Yawning Bread. Use the search function to locate them.

11. He/she is gay. What is the best thing I can do?

Make an effort to understand what it means to be homosexual. Do a bit of clear thinking and examine any pre-conceived notions you may have. Do not be judgmental. You yourself would not want others to be judgmental around you. Continue to see him as a person, a person you've long known.

Find some way to indicate that you are broadminded. Find some way to reassure him that the question of rejection does not arise. If it is true that it may take a while for you to get used to the idea, say so, be honest yourself. But if you believe that your love and capacity for friendship is deep enough to take the news in stride, then say that too, and work at it.

12. He/she is gay. What is the worst thing I can do?

The worst thing you can do is to issue ultimatums. You should never demand that he change, or repent. You should never make your love and friendship conditional upon others living their lives in accordance with your demands.

To demand that he change is asking for the impossible. He can never comply. He will simply feel cut off from you. You risk driving him to despair and suicide.

The second worst thing you can do is to say "I cannot accept it". This response is not constructive. It builds brick walls against understanding and communication. He is not asking you for permission or acceptance. He is telling you the truth about himself. Imagine that you're a 43-year-old woman. When an occasion calls for it, you tell your friend, truthfully, "I am a 43-year-old woman." But the response you get is "I cannot accept it. You must change!" Wouldn't you consider that a moronic and unhelpful answer?

13. What is meant by "homosexual lifestyle choice"?

Nothing. It is a meaningless term.

Firstly, there is no choice involved in being homosexual. Secondly, homosexual persons are as varied as heterosexual persons. There is no uniformity in the lives they lead. Some are career-driven and super-achievers; others know how to savour life. Some care for the environment; others are always buying the latest model of techno-wizardry and junking the old. Some are promiscuous; others are extremely faithful to their partners. Just like heterosexual persons.

This term, "homosexual lifestyle choice", is an invention of people who are anti-gay. They use this term to paint a false picture of supposed hedonism, and then go blasting at it.

Do not use this term. It is derogatory. Actually, it is bad enough that it is meaningless.

14. Is it true that homosexual men are obsessed with sex?

No more, no less, than heterosexual men.

Perhaps the media gives this impression. When heterosexual men are caught in compromising situations with the opposite sex, it is hardly newsworthy (unless the person is famous). But since homosexual exposés are considered more salacious and more newsworthy, based on the "moralism" of some societies, they tend to be highlighted. This bias in reporting may give the impression that homosexual men are more obsessed with sex, or that their behaviour is more shocking.

15. What is the risk of him getting AIDS?

On an individual basis, no more, no less than heterosexual persons. AIDS is not a disease for homosexual persons. AIDS is a disease spread mainly through sex, any kind of sex that is unprotected. Another common route of transmission is through intravenous drug use, but this is not at all related to sex.

In Singapore, the majority of HIV infections occur via heterosexual sex. Lesbians are considered one of the groups with the lowest risk factors.

Every one, whatever his sexual orientation, male or female, should be aware of the risk, and the appropriate protective measures, like using a condom. Just because a person engages in homosexual relationships does not mean he is necessarily at greater risk.

16. Is it a crime to be homosexual?

In Singapore, the homosexual act between males is a criminal offence. Even if it takes place between two consenting adults in the privacy of the home, the law considers it an offence. Government ministers however have said that the law will not be applied to consenting adults in private, and data from court cases indicate this policy is in effect.

The law probably does not apply to females, though as far as I know, no case has yet come up to test it. This means lesbian sex is most probably legal.

Most Asian countries do not have laws against homosexual sex. They only ones that do are ex-British colonies which inherited the laws from Victorian England.

What we have is a terribly stupid law. It is in breach of the UN Human Rights Committee's ruling that discrimination on the ground of sexual orientation is a violation of human rights. Although the Singapore government no longer enforces the law actively, the continued existence of the law reinforces prejudice and discrimination in this country, causing emotional damage (and possibly suicide) to your friends and your loved ones.

17. How do I tell whether a person is homosexual or not?

Most of the time, you can't. Homosexual persons are normal persons. They look normal, they act quite indistinguishably from heterosexual persons. This is so for a simple reason: they are normal. Just as a left-handed person is, for all practical purposes, quite a normal person.

The question should be why do you want to be able to tell whether a person is homosexual or not? I hope it is not to poke your nose into others' private affairs. I hope it is not to justify any discriminatory action (like sacking him from his job).

18. How many homosexuals are there in a population?

There is no simple answer to this, but most researchers today are of the consensus, based primarily on surveys done in the West, that among adult males it is somewhere in the region of 6-7%. There is an additional 6% or so who are bisexual (i.e. people who are attracted sometimes to the same sex, sometimes to the opposite sex).

Among adult females, the percentages are lower. Somewhere in the region of 3-4% homosexual, and perhaps a similar number bisexual.

There is no indication so far that these percentages vary by much from one country to another.

The question of percentages is complicated because of the many ways one can use to define homosexuality and bisexuality. What if a person feels homosexual but doesn't engage in homosexual acts? What if a person feels heterosexual, but engages in homosexual acts? What if a person is in a stable homosexual relationship, but occasionally has sex with the opposite sex?

Still, using the above percentages, as a rule of thumb then, it means that out of every fifteen male persons you know, about one would be homosexual and one bisexual. 15 is not a large set. How many male colleagues do you have in your office? In your class?

Chances are that you won't be able to figure out which of them are homosexual or bisexual. This only goes to show how normal they are.

19. How did homosexuality come into Asian societies?

Asian societies have always had homosexual persons in their midst. Historical records indicate so. For example, classical Chinese literature contain numerous references to same-sex love, expressed in non-derogatory terms. Chinese imperial records through the ages have witnessed emperors and high officials with homosexual love affairs, as have Moghul records from India.

There are some people who hold the mistaken idea that homosexuality was one of those "degenerate practices" imported from the West. They are wrong. It's not degenerate, and it's not Western.

20. What is homophobia?

Homophobia is defined as a "fear of homosexuality or homosexual persons". Quite often, though, it is used in the sense of "hatred of homosexuality or homosexual persons".

Like other phobias, e.g. hydrophobia (fear of water) or agoraphobia (fear of venturing into public spaces), homophobia is essentially irrational. It is not founded on clear logic or reason.

Unfortunately, some people act out their homophobia, in the form of gay-bashing, in the form of emotional rejection and even violent treatment of family members who are homosexual. When in positions of authority, they enact laws or preach sermons that do injustice to millions of homosexual persons around the world.

2008-10-26T01:16:00.002+08:00

Today's topic, we're gonna talk all about the spooky Halloween and why do some country, especially people living in the states or in the Europe celebrate Halloween.....

Halloween's origins date back to the ancient Celtic festival of Samhain (pronounced sow-in).

The Celts, who lived 2,000 years ago in the area that is now Ireland, the United Kingdom, and northern France, celebrated their new year on November 1. This day marked the end of summer and the harvest and the beginning of the dark, cold winter, a time of year that was often associated with human death. Celts believed that on the night before the new year, the boundary between the worlds of the living and the dead became blurred. On the night of October 31, they celebrated Samhain, when it was believed that the ghosts of the dead returned to earth. In addition to causing trouble and damaging crops, Celts thought that the presence of the otherworldly spirits made it easier for the Druids, or Celtic priests, to make predictions about the future. For a people entirely dependent on the volatile natural world, these prophecies were an important source of comfort and direction during the long, dark winter.

To commemorate the event, Druids built huge sacred bonfires, where the people gathered to burn crops and animals as sacrifices to the Celtic deities.

During the celebration, the Celts wore costumes, typically consisting of animal heads and skins, and attempted to tell each other's fortunes. When the celebration was over, they re-lit their hearth fires, which they had extinguished earlier that evening, from the sacred bonfire to help protect them during the coming winter.

By A.D. 43, Romans had conquered the majority of Celtic territory. In the course of the four hundred years that they ruled the Celtic lands, two festivals of Roman origin were combined with the traditional Celtic celebration of Samhain.

The first was Feralia, a day in late October when the Romans traditionally commemorated the passing of the dead. The second was a day to honor Pomona, the Roman goddess of fruit and trees. The symbol of Pomona is the apple and the incorporation of this celebration into Samhain probably explains the tradition of "bobbing" for apples that is practiced today on Halloween.

By the 800s, the influence of Christianity had spread into Celtic lands. In the seventh century, Pope Boniface IV designated November 1 All Saints' Day, a time to honor saints and martyrs. It is widely believed today that the pope was attempting to replace the Celtic festival of the dead with a related, but church-sanctioned holiday. The celebration was also called All-hallows or All-hallowmas (from Middle English Alholowmesse meaning All Saints' Day) and the night before it, the night of Samhain, began to be called All-hallows Eve and, eventually, Halloween. Even later, in A.D. 1000, the church would make November 2 All Souls' Day, a day to honor the dead. It was celebrated similarly to Samhain, with big bonfires, parades, and dressing up in costumes as saints, angels, and devils. Together, the three celebrations, the eve of All Saints', All Saints', and All Souls', were called Hallowmas.....

SO now you knw why do people celebrate halloween.... ARE you going to celebrate too??? well AyiE here gonna join the fun this November 2.... Join him at st james with ur FABULOUS costume on the FABULOUS HALLOWEEN night!

signing off
AyiE

2008-10-18T02:42:00.002+08:00

AyiE is currently feeling depressed and in no mood to do almost anything, Up for now, the only thing that ayie gonna do is club and get drunk and to forget everything that have happen to AyiE. AyiE thinks tat it is time for AyiE to be his "OLD" AyiE.

I am what i am...

And if any of you bitches trying luck to offend the upcoming AyiE....

AyiE will make sure that your MOTHER FUCKING life will be a LIVING nightmare....

so FUCK OFF....

Kuala Lumpur

2008-09-18T04:05:00.002+08:00

2008-09-11T08:39:00.005+08:00

Ok...been a long time since i last update.... or izzit? hmmm... well u see.... the otherday... my dad brought home a HUGE fish! he said to me "SON... i wan u to make good use of this fish..." haha so the drama script siark... but oh well.. i did use the fish yesterday! lol... i cook erm... fish and chips with sweet and sour sauce on rice! hmmmm... sound yummy... well... SUPRISINGLY... it is! well... here's the pic of the fish....

Well.... this is the fish tat my dad brought home... have no idea wats the name.. but i guess its grapu...hmmmm..... took me almost HOURS to clean up the scale of this fish.... am sooo NOOB la in cutting fish... lol.....

after that... fillet it..... hmmm it look like salmon.. lol... after that.. dip it in flour with some other ingredient and...

Voila! hahaaz... it is a simple dish la... hahahaz.. no need to make a big hoo haa abt it! but still! i cook it! and my sis say its GREAT! wheeeeeeeeee~

signing off
AyiE

2008-09-08T04:08:00.001+08:00

Ever heard a FUCKING village?

Singapore Short Film - The Letter [R21]

2008-09-07T21:00:00.003+08:00

This story is based on a true life story about a boy struggling with his forbidden love. Rated R21 by MDA.

A short film directed by Justin Kan and produced by Dex Tan. Starring Lawrence Wong, Edric Hsu, Candice De Rosario, Sun Yi, Roy Nerng, Liting, Aishah and Renee Chua. Music by Kevin Fok and Kenny Ong.

2008-09-06T12:42:00.005+08:00

Thursday just wasnt my good day.... **on 04/09/2008 @ 1635hrs, i was walking home from yew tee shopping centre and i did not notice anything amiss. However, while i was walking on the 2nd level multi-storey carpark on the way back home, i was being pushed to the staircase landing from the rear by 2 unknown male malay subjects wearing helmets with tinted visors. When i fell down to the ground, both subject start to kick me repeatedly and one of the subject took out a sharp object believed to be a pen knife and slash onto me. i then tried to defend my self using my arms. My police Warrant card and 11B were taken away but my cash and mobile phone was left untouched. Both of them fled towards the carpark area to unknown direction. Im kinda worried for my family safety too cause my 11B have my full address... I need help but dunno who to seek from... any suggestion...

Picture of my arm been slashed.... Lucky it was just a pen knife... not a Parang...
im suprised... even on fasting month... there are still ppl with evil intention.....

signing off
AyiE

2008-07-31T15:45:00.005+08:00

Wow... the next post im about to post is Exclusive... The fact and Shocking!, this article have been adapted from The Fabulous Rainbow Lifestyle.....

Homophobia is real and can sometimes be fatal.

"I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian."

"I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman."

"I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights."

"We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time."

"I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room."

"I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me."

"I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again."

"I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear."

"We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men."

"I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me."

"I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman."

"I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman."

"I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male."

"I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men."

"I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that."

"I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual."

"I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me."

"I am the man who stopped attending place of worship, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind."

"I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love."

What you have read above are some of the major problem that PLU are facing every single mins, hours, days, weeks, months, years and so for... We urge the community to be open minded and treat the minors equally. afterall we are humans and we do have feelings.....

This article is brought to you by i-blog08 and adapted from

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AyiE

2008-07-31T10:09:00.002+08:00

A Squad Montage i've created for my beloved Squad NS08/08...

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AyiE

2008-07-26T12:44:00.003+08:00

Do YOU know that:

The names of the three wise monkeys? They are: Mizaru (See no evil), Mikazaru (Hear no evil), and Mazaru (Speak no evil).
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An atomic clock is accurate to within 1 second in 1,7 million years.

Thomas Cook, the world's first travel agency in the world, was founded in 1850.

A fathom is 1,8 metres (6 feet).

There are more TV sets in the US than there are people in the UK.

Before the year 1000, the word "she" did not exist in the English language. The singular female reference was the word "heo", which also was the plural of all genders. The word "she" appeared only in the 12th century, about 400 years after English began to take form. "She" probably derived from the old english feminine "seo", the Viking word for feminine reference.

There are no letters assigned to the numbers 1 and 0 on a phone keypad. These numbers remain unassigned because they are so-called "flag" numbers, kept for special purposes such as emergency or operator services.

After the French revolution of 1789 selling sour wine was considered against national interest and the merchant was promptly executed.

For 3000 years, until 1883, hemp was the world's largest agricultural crop, from which the majority of fabric, soap, paper, medicines, and oils were produced.

George Washington and Thomas Jefferson both grew hemp. Ben Franklin owned a mill that made hemp paper. The US Declaration of Independence was written on hemp paper.

The word malaria comes from the words mal and aria, which means bad air. This derives from the old days when it was thought that all diseases are caused by bad, or dirty air.

The names of all the continents end with the letter they start with.

On every continent there is a city called Rome.

The oldest inhabited city is Damascus, Syria.

The first city in the world to have a population of more than one million was Rome

The most populated city in the world - when major urban areas are included - is Tokyo, with 30 million residents.

Tokyo was once known as Edo.

The pin that holds a hinge together is called a pintle.

The Vatican is the world's smallest country, at 0,44 square km (0,16 square miles).

The US flag displays 13 stripes - for the original 13 states.

To most Americans, the orient is China, Japan, Korea and Vietnam; to Europeans it is the area of India and Pakistan.

The words "electronic mail" might sound new but was introduced 30 years ago. Queen Elizabeth of Britain sent her first email in 1976.

Some 190 billion emails are sent daily - more than 2 million per second - by 1,2 billion email senders. About 70% (133 billion emails) are spam and viruses. There are about 1,4 billion registered email addresses.

Eskimos use refrigerators to keep food from freezing.

MasterCard was originally called MasterCharge.

Neil Armstrong stepped on the moon with his left foot first.

The sentence "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog" uses every letter of the alphabet.

Lightning strikes men about seven times more often than it does women.

Women make up 49% of the world population.

About 50% of Americans live within 50 miles of their birthplace. This is called propinquity.

The pleasant feeling of eating chocolate is caused by a chemical called anadamide, a
neurotransmitter which also is produced naturally in the brain.

From the Middle Ages until the 18th century the local barber's duties included dentistry, blood letting, minor operations and bone-setting. The barber's striped red pole originates from when patients would grip the pole during an operation.

The US nickname Uncle Sam was derived from Uncle Sam Wilson, a meat inspector in Troy, New York.

The living does not outnumber the dead: since the creation about 60 billion people have died.

The electric chair was invented by a dentist.

Midday refers to the moment the sun crosses the local meridian.

Due to earth's gravity it is impossible for mountains to be higher than 15,000 metres.

It is not true that the Great Wall of China is the only man-made structure that can be viewed from space - many man-made objects, including the Dutch polders, can be viewed from space.

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AyiE

2008-07-26T02:55:00.003+08:00

i-Blog Bringing you another Exclusive Topic.

True Fact, Question and Answer about Homosexuallity brought to you by yawningbread.org.

If you have recently discovered your son, daughter, brother, sister or friend to be homosexual, we hope the following answers are helpful to you in some way.

1. What exactly is homosexuality?

Homosexuality is the tendency wherein the persons you find sexually attractive happen to be persons of the same sex as yourself.

2. Why do some people think they are homosexual?

Related to this question is another, "Why do some people choose to be homosexual?"

3. What causes a person to be homosexual?

(a) Genetic causes?
There is increasing evidence that it may be partly genetic. For example, it is found that when one son is gay, his brothers have a higher chance of being homosexual too. A homosexual identical twin (who shares the same genes with his twin) has the highest likelihood of having a homosexual brother.
Other articles in Yawning Bread provide more information on recent scientific discoveries. Use the search function to locate them.

(b) Other biological causes?
There is also increasing evidence of hormonal factors acting on the foetus. There is some tentative evidence that the brain structure in homosexual persons is different from heterosexual persons, and that this difference in brain structure arose from brain development in foetal life.
The most likely cause for differences in brain development is that of hormonal balance while in the womb. There is evidence that this hormonal balance of the foetus would have been affected by the hormonal balance of the pregnant mother.
Other articles in Yawning Bread provide more information on recent scientific discoveries. Use the search function to locate them.
(c) Upbringing?
On the other hand, evidence for upbringing as a factor is non-existent, despite a century of searching by people attached to this idea. The first problem is that "upbringing" is a very vague and general term. When I press my questioners to be more specific, they tend to bring up two old ideas which I will deal with below:
(d) Distant father, domineering mother?
This is an old idea that has no credible research supporting it. It is conjecture that comes from the idea that homosexual males are somehow feminised by an overdominant mother, while the father as the male role model is absent.
The problem with this conjecture is that it assumes that homosexual males are feminised. This is contradicted by the simple observation that the vast majority of homosexual males are as masculine as heterosexual males.
People who have made a serious study of homosexuality generally consider this notion to be without basis.
(e) Being molested when young?
This is another old idea without any credible data.
It comes from the mistaken assumption that people are innately heterosexual, but are "converted" to homosexuality through bad experiences, or through exposure to other homosexual persons during their formative years.
It is contradicted by the increasing evidence of a biological basis for homosexuality.
It is also contradicted by the fact that the vast majority of homosexual persons do not have any experiences of being molested, just like the vast majority of heterosexual persons.
Of the unfortunate few who have been molested by others of the same sex, some have turned out to be homosexual, while others have turned out to be heterosexual. Of those who have been molested by people of the opposite sex, some have turned out to be homosexual too, but others heterosexual. No observable pattern has ever been shown.
(f) Mixing around with other homosexual people?
A person does not become homosexual because he has homosexual friends. Likewise, a homosexual person will not turn heterosexual even when he mixes with heterosexual persons. Sexual orientation, either way, is pretty much fixed in any particular person.
Even children and teenagers do not turn homosexual just because they mix with homosexual adults. After all, the great majority of adults that children mix with are heterosexual. Is it logical that just because they get to know one, or even more than one, adult who is homosexual, it will forever change the child's future sexuality?

4. At what age do most homosexual persons become homosexual?

To outsiders it would look like he suddenly "turned" homosexual. In fact, he has always been homosexual, only that he has denied it all this while.

5. How can a homosexual person change?

He can't.

Many homosexuals, wanting to escape social pressure, have tried. There has been no properly documented case of anyone succeeding.

Sexual orientation is too fundamental in our nature to be changed. You cannot change homosexuals into heterosexuals. Nor vice versa.

6. What can psychiatrists do?

They can't change anyone's sexual orientation.

7. How do I persuade him to mix more with the opposite sex?

Why do you want to persuade him to mix more with the opposite sex? Are you hoping that he will turn heterosexual? As I said above, sexual orientation can't be changed.

8. Are all gay men effeminate and all lesbian women tomboyish?

No.

By the way, some effeminate men are heterosexual. Some tomboyish women are heterosexual.

9. Do homosexual people wish to go for a sex change?

No.

10. Why does my son, daughter, brother, sister or friend want to tell me that that he is homosexual? Why isn't he ashamed of it?

There are a few first-hand coming-out stories in Yawning Bread. Use the search function to locate them.

11. He/she is gay. What is the best thing I can do?

12. He/she is gay. What is the worst thing I can do?

To demand that he change is asking for the impossible. He can never comply. He will simply feel cut off from you. You risk driving him to despair and suicide.

13. What is meant by "homosexual lifestyle choice"?

Nothing. It is a meaningless term.

This term, "homosexual lifestyle choice", is an invention of people who are anti-gay. They use this term to paint a false picture of supposed hedonism, and then go blasting at it.

Do not use this term. It is derogatory. Actually, it is bad enough that it is meaningless.

14. Is it true that homosexual men are obsessed with sex?

No more, no less, than heterosexual men.

15. What is the risk of him getting AIDS?

In Singapore, the majority of HIV infections occur via heterosexual sex. Lesbians are considered one of the groups with the lowest risk factors.

16. Is it a crime to be homosexual?

The law probably does not apply to females, though as far as I know, no case has yet come up to test it. This means lesbian sex is most probably legal.

Most Asian countries do not have laws against homosexual sex. They only ones that do are ex-British colonies which inherited the laws from Victorian England.

17. How do I tell whether a person is homosexual or not?

18. How many homosexuals are there in a population?

Among adult females, the percentages are lower. Somewhere in the region of 3-4% homosexual, and perhaps a similar number bisexual.

There is no indication so far that these percentages vary by much from one country to another.

Chances are that you won't be able to figure out which of them are homosexual or bisexual. This only goes to show how normal they are.

19. How did homosexuality come into Asian societies?

There are some people who hold the mistaken idea that homosexuality was one of those "degenerate practices" imported from the West. They are wrong. It's not degenerate, and it's not Western.

20. What is homophobia?

Homophobia is defined as a "fear of homosexuality or homosexual persons". Quite often, though, it is used in the sense of "hatred of homosexuality or homosexual persons".

Like other phobias, e.g. hydrophobia (fear of water) or agoraphobia (fear of venturing into public spaces), homophobia is essentially irrational. It is not founded on clear logic or reason.

There are some articles in Yawning Bread that discuss the origins of homophobia. Use the search function to locate them.

That is all for now
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AyiE...

2008-07-19T10:53:00.004+08:00

I just realised (after doing sooo many reflection) that the life that we have now is very valuable and precious. Facing the fact that i only have a few years to live on, i think i am going to spend every single available time wisely. Like many people said, Life is short, live it to the fullest... let us cut down the fighting, let us cut down the worrying, let us cut down the hatred... am not going to waste any of my precious time fighting over small things, categorising people or hating people... seriously its a waste of time... so the next time people looking for trouble with me, i just cant be bothered... am gonna adapt a "i cant be bothered" attitude... i tink it wud be better, minding my own business and making my self happy in life.... infact happy people live longer.... so yea.....

well i gtg now... hoping my best to spend time with azrio... one of my closest friend in NS... so yea.. haha... dun think otherwise!

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AyiE

2008-07-18T17:40:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, here to update... ive been feeling sick for the past few months actually, when i say sick, i mean i am literrally sick! no joke at all... well to others i may seem ok cause tat is what i want them to think cause i dun really like when my friends are worried about me... really, so pls do not worry, i understand your just showing ur care and concern, and i really2 appreciate it alot! So as i was saying, i was sick... The NUH called me up for an appointment, stating tat i have an abnormal blood result, so i did go back to NUH to go for another test.... 2 weeks later the same abnormal blood result.... i asked how abnormal can it be?? and even the doctor do not knw how to explain... so i was refered to TTSH CDC, when i heard that they are transferring me to CDC i get afraid... because its a place where people go for HIV treatment.... TONNES of question running through my mind, asking my self if its possible that i am a HIV positive carrier... and dang i am sooooooo afraid and panic, i have no one to turn to now! gosh... so much of a drama!

ok... last week i went to CDC 1 for the appointment.... str8 at the doctor face i asked, AM I A HIV CARRIER!.... then the doctor say.... "NONSENSE" lol.. i was like huh?? wat do u mean by nonsence, then the doctor reply that i am not a HIV carrier, there's no HIV AB viruses found in my blood... then i was like "PHEW" THANK GOD!.... soo... at cdc.... we proceed for another blood test.... then the result reveal.....

hmmm seriously, when the doctor approach me, he doesnt have any smile on his face... and i sense something is not right... but what is it??

"Indeed, i have a bad news for you... Not tat you are having a HIV, but you have a blood disorder". Doctor says...

i replied... "Is it tat bad"...

"oh yes it is, this blood disorder case is very rare and there's no cure for it... but with treatment you can control ur blood cell and cd4..."

"oh ok..." i thought tat is all..... then the doctor says...

"Judging from your NS salary, i dun think you can afford the treatment cause its $3500 per month... and am sorry to say but without treatment, you only have 5 to 8 years of lifespan, with treatment, you may have 8 to 14 years if lifespan..."

well tears start to flow out of my cheek, i cant believe tat i only have 8 years of lifespan cause i cant afford the treatment... but i have to be strong... think positive... and move on.... within next 2 years who knws i find a better job and can afford the treatment... god knows.... so yea indeed ive revealed it.... but pls do not worry for me... and don worry cause it cannot infect others... its only in me... so yea....

signing off... afad...

National Service??

2008-07-18T00:44:00.003+08:00

The NS (Amendment) act was passed on 14 March 1967, as the Singapore government felt that it was necessary to build a substantial military force. The country only had about 1000 soldiers at the time of independence. In the late 1960s, the British government had decided to withdraw its troops and bases East of Suez, which included the troops stationed in Singapore. That prompted the government to implement a conscription program for the country's defence. It adopted a conscription model drawing on elements of the Swiss and Israeli national conscription schemes. This was done with the help of Israeli military advisers who were closely involved in the establishment of the Singapore armed forces.^[1]

The stated rationale behind conscription is two-fold. Firstly, because Singapore has a population of about 4 million (as of 2004), an army solely of regulars would be too small to defend the country. Secondly, national service is supposed to foster racial harmony among the Chinese, Malay, Indian, and other ethnic groups in the country by requiring all males to go through similar experiences and thus being able to identify themselves to share a common destiny of defending the nation. (see multiracialism).

Enlistment

Male Singaporean citizens and permanent residents alike are required to register for National Service upon reaching the age of 16½ years, during which they would also be required to undergo a mandatory medical examination to determine their medical status, known as Physical Employment Status (PES), which is used as a guideline as to which vocation the person is placed in.

Exemptions are rare and are usually due to disability or serious medical conditions certified by the SAF Medical Board. One instance of rare cases of exemption would be if the enlistment would cause hardship to the enlistee's family, be it financially or otherwise, although this particular exemption is rarely granted.

Physical Employment Status (PES)
PES code^[2]	Status
PES A	Fit for all operational vocations (Full BMT)
PES B	Fit for most operational vocations (Full BMT)
PES BP	Fit for 4 months/26 weeks full BMT (applicable only to obese recruits)
PES C	Fit for some operational vocations (Modified BMT) Further subdivided into: C1 Required to take IPPT, but can be excused up to 2 static stations C2 Not required to take IPPT except Regulars, who are required to take Alternative Aerobic Fitness Test (AAFT) C9 Serviceman exempted from IPPT The PES C grading is supplemented by the Land Deployability Code (L-Code) as follows: L1: Fit for field duties including front-line duty L2: Fit for field duties but only in Unit HQ or rear areas L3: Fit for operational duties at Bases only. Not fit for field duties / exercises L9: Not fit for field duties / exercises
PES D	Temporarily unfit for grading and pending further review
PES E	Fit for administrative duties only Further subdivided into: PES E1: Able to participate in simple observance parades and LIFE activities PES E9: Unfit for any form of physical activities PES E grading will be followed by the L-Code (Land Deployability Code) as follows: L3: Fit for operational duties at Bases only. Not fit for field duties/exercises L9: Suitable for peacetime sedentary duties at Bases. Not fit for operational duties even in Bases
PES F	Medically unfit for any form of service

Male children who take up permanent residency status through their permanent resident parent's sponsorship will be required to serve National Service like other Singaporean males [1]. However, foreigners who take up jobs in Singapore or become permanent residents of Singapore will not be required to serve National Service.

They are then called up for enlistment at the age of 18, although most Singaporean males would usually choose to complete their tertiary education in the respective Polytechnics, High Schools, Junior Colleges, Pre-University courses or other institutions before commencing the mandatory duration in which they are required to serve. Those who voluntarily opt for early enlistment with the consent of their parents are allowed to commence full-time national service at the age of 16½.

The duration of the conscription for a typical Singaporean male usually spans over a period of 2 or 2½ years depending on his educational qualifications. As an incentive of some sort, the duration may be cut by a further 2 months, if potential enlistees are able to obtain a silver or gold for their physical fitness test (NAPFA) prior to enlistment. The duration of National Service has since undergone some minor changes and it now stands at a period of 1 years 10 months to a maximum of 2 years.

Enlisted Date^[3]	Rank	Full-Time NS Duration¹	Qualifications	Remarks
1971 till Nov 2004	Lance Corporal or lower	2 years	O-level, N-Level and ITC or lower
1971 till May 2004	Corporal and higher	2 years 6 months	A-level and Diploma qualifications or higher	Will be promoted to at least the rank of Corporal
Jun 2004 till Nov 2004	Corporal and higher	2 years 2 months	A-level and Diploma qualifications or higher	Then current serving NSF wil have 2 months reduction instead
From Dec 2004	All ranks	2 years	All qualifications
1. NAPFA Silver before enlistment get further 2 months reduction

Refusal to serve and conscientious objection

Those who are liable to serve national service, but refuse to, are charged under an Enlistment Act. If convicted, face imprisonment for a period of three years and a fine of S$10,000. Controversy arose when the penalties were increased in January 2006 after Melvyn Tan, who was born in Singapore, received a fine for defaulting on his National Service obligations. Tan left for London to study music during his enlistment age and later acquired British nationality. In parliament, Defence Minister Teo Chee Hean provided some illustration of the punishments defaulters would face:^[4]

Where the default period exceeds two years but the defaulter is young enough to serve his full-time and operationally ready NS duties in full, MINDEF will press for a short jail sentence.
Where the defaulter has reached an age when he cannot serve his full-time NS in a combat vocation or fulfil his operationally ready NS obligations in full, a longer jail sentence to reflect the period of NS he has evaded may be appropriate.
Where the defaulter has reached an age when he cannot be called up for NS at all, a jail sentence up to the maximum of three years may be appropriate.

Each year, a small number of people are convicted for their failure to enlist or refusal to serve in the military.^[5] Most of them are Jehovah's Witnesses, who are usually court-martialled and sentenced to three years of imprisonment, although they are usually held in a low security detention facility and separated from other military offenders. The government doesn't consider Conscientious objection to be a legal reason for refusal to serve NS. Since 1972, Jehovah's Witnesses as a religious group have been banned from Singapore.^[6]

Economic and social impact

There have been reports of reservists who were denied job opportunities because of their NS commitments.^[7] Among some Singaporeans, there is a sense of dissatisfaction with regard to the foreigners who do not have to serve NS, but are able enjoy the fruits of Singapore's economic success.^[8]

Also, the stipend given to full-time NSFs are usually below what he would would receive in an open labor market.^[9] In comparison, the salary paid to a career soldier performing an equivalent task would otherwise be very competitive, at times even higher than civilian pay^[10]^[11], given the increased risk and nature of the job. This can be seen as a form of hidden taxation, since the conscript is coerced into serving at levels of compensation below what would induced them to sign up as a career soldier and are hence underpaid with tax-in-kind.^[12]

Aligning with the increasing education levels of conscripts ^[13], a lengthy period of conscription dams the economic contributions of these young men in a labor market where unemployment rate is low^[14], in which their specific skill and talent would be better valued by employers rather than being accorded and generalized by rank or vocation.^[11] This is against the principle of comparative advantage, offering an ineffective match between people and jobs, incurring increased opportunity cost to the conscript.^[12]

With a system of depressed compensation enforced by the government through legislation, it reduces the efficiency, hence productivity of labor when manpower is in abundance supply and inexpensive. This is magnified in peacetime, when the cost of over-manning, organizing and maintaining a large passive standing army put more burden on the government expenditure than the tangible gain it benefit.^[12]

Given the regularity of conscripts turnover, the cost of retraining, adapting and familiarizing a soldier with equipment and machinery increases, as does the incident of casualties and accidents.^[12] It also raises the question of social equality, since it is only young men and not women who are drafted into conscription where it may be viewed as discriminatory, with the delayed access to employment or further education.^[12]

Type of services

Military service

There are several types of Basic Military Training (BMT) conducted by the SAF at its BMT Centre on Pulau Tekong, which is an island off the north-east coast of Singapore. Medically fit NSFs who hold educational qualifications from Junior Colleges and other institutions of higher learning undergo a 10-week Enhanced BMT program. Those from lower educational backgrounds undergo a similar program (Standard BMT program), but without a Sit Test (Situational Test), which is a test used to assess trainees for posting to command schools like the School of Infantry Specialists (SISPEC) and Officer Cadet School (OCS), occasionally a select few will later be posted to the Police service for training as an Inspector.

NSFs who are less medically fit, depending on their particular medical condition, either have to go a 7-week Modified BMT or just a 1-week induction program for recruits with certain medical conditions.^[16] NSFs who are medically fit, but have failed the pre-enlistment Individual Physical Proficiency Test (IPPT), will have to undergo an additional 4-week Physical Training Phase (PTP), making it a 13-week BMT program for them. Conscripts who are overweight go through special BMT programs, depending on the severity of their obesity, with the longest BMT program lasting 4 months (16 weeks) for the most obese trainees. The obesity of a conscript is determined by his Body Mass Index (BMI) during the pre-enlistment medical checkup.

Medically fit NSmen also have to take the IPPT every year as part of their training program.

Police Service

Though a majority will serve in the army for their National Service, a considerable number of enlistees will serve their NS years in the Police Force. For those who are chosen to serve in the Police Force, they will undergo training at the Home Team Academy where they will study the Penal code and standard police protocol. After training at the Academy, they will be posted to various Departments of the Force eg. Special Operations Command (SOC), Logistics, Land divisions, Airport Police, etc. Those who are posted to the Police Coast Guard (PCG) or Police KINS will undergo further training. Selection of Officer Cadet Trainees (OCTs) to undergo the NS Police Inspector Course (NSPI) is a stringent process for Police National Servicemen (Full-time). Usually, a very small number (ie 3) from each cohort will be selected, with the majority of the OCTs being the Singapore Armed Forces' National Servicemen (Full-time) who have completed their Basic Military Training (BMT).

Civil Defence Service

The SCDF is the emergency rescue force of Singapore and they provide firefighting, rescue and ambulance services, and has been one of the three National Service postings since 1972. Those who are enlisted into the Singapore Civil Defence Force (SCDF) will typically undergo a 7-week Basic Rescue Training at the Basic Rescue Training Centre (BRTC) where they will be given basic rescue training (BRT), exposed regimental discipline and trained to maintain a level of fitness required of all NSFs in Singapore.

Much alike the SAF's SISPEC course, selected NSFs are also posted to the Civil Defence Academy (CDA) to undergo the Firefighter Course (FFC) or the Emergency Response Specialist Course (ERSC) within the first two weeks of their BRT stage, passing out as Firefighters for FFC trainees, and as Fire & Rescue Specialists for ERS trainees who would also simultaneously be conferred with the Sergeant rank (Firefighters mostly pass out as Privates prior to station posting). Firefighters would typically be posted out to the various fire stations island-wide after passing out, while Fire & Rescue Specialists would be posted as Section Commanders at territorial division, fire stations or at the Special Rescue Battalion; a small number may also be posted as Instructors back in the CDA to staff the Command & Staff Training Wing.

While a certain level of health and fitness pre-requisites are expected by both the FFC and ERSC administrators before one can be selected for the aforementioned courses, admission into the ERS course typically requires a certain added set of added qualifications, namely either a minimum of a GCE 'A' Level certificate, a Polytechnic Diploma or a Higher Nitec Certificate. These added pre-requisites are viewed as necessary in light of a Section Commander's operational and administrative role when posted out. One marked difference between the FFC and ERSC is the added rescue and emergency training received by ERS Specialist Cadet Trainees (SCTs), as well as the General Command & Control Term which includes the Basic Home Team Course held at the Home Team Academy and an outward-bound Brunei trip which serves to equip and develop the necessary leadership skills required of a specialist junior officer. In terms of administration and duration, the FFC is under the charge of the Firefighting Training Wing (FFTW) and lasts for three months while the ERSC is under the purview of the Command & Staff Training Wing (CSTW) and lasts for six months.

In addition, there is also the Basic Officer Course under the charge of the CSTW designed to train NSFs and regulars as Senior Officers of the SCDF, with NSFs graduating as Lieutenants (LTA). While the BOC is traditionally largely made up of NSFs from the SAF who had just completed their Basic Military Training (BMT) at Tekong, the top 5-10% of the ERSC will also be offered to cross-over to the Basic Officer Course (BOC) to be trained and commissioned as Senior Officers after passing out, spending the last three months of the BOC together with Officer Cadet Trainees (OCTs).

For NSFs who undergo the full 7-week basic rescue training at the BRTC, they will subsequently be posted and trained to become Medical Orderly (Medics), Dog Handlers, Provosts, Infocomm & Logistics Specialists or Instructors (such as Physical Training Instructors or PTIs) among many other vocations upon passing out from the BRTC.

2008-07-17T13:10:00.003+08:00

its been 4Mths and now finally, POP oi!... hahaz, well for sure am gonna missed all my squad mates, we have been staying together for the past 4mths, sharing our problems among our mates, be it squad mate or coy mate from other squad... and not forgeting having pt session with our FI sufiyan and getting nag by our OC, SI Asnah... This 4mths of POBC have taught me many things, and also meet many people from different walk of life... haiz seriously, i am gonna miss all this fun... well i gtg nw.. cya....
signing off.... Afad...

2008-06-13T01:02:00.003+08:00

hey guys, gosh been a looong time since i update this blog! anyway ive been busy designing logo for my squad shir..... the image above are the logo that i've been creating....hahaz... so much free time rite? lol... ya anyway am too tired la to even blog... so till then...

signing off
AyiE

2008-05-18T16:17:00.001+08:00

2008-05-18T16:12:00.000+08:00

2008-05-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

It has been a worst week of my life... everything happen so fast and harsh... i cant really take the presure... its no wonder the thought of suicide is ALWAYS in my mind. First and foremost i just lost a coy mate who have been showing his care and concern to me when i was on light duty, never failed to let me smile, a very joyful guy. but on 15 of may 2008, he left us without saying goodbye, tears actually drip down my face upon hearing the news but i have no choice but to hide it from my squadmate. to Allahyarham Roslan bin saharo, i promise you that we wont forget u.... ur name and ur kindness have been engraved in our hearts.

After hearing the news, i receive another news that my adk angkat patch up with the bitch who still owes me my $50 and yet to return. feeling sad and then pissed off...

then on friday night, Kid confess that he is attached to chucky. the guy who i hated the most, the guy who have cheated my feelings... no wonder he is nt into me for he have fallen for my adk kid... upon hearing the news... am like one chipmunk who have lost all the nuts that have been saving for winter hybernation period... so pissed off that i actuall slam my F700 phone hard on the table!....

i sooo hate my life seriously... and now my back hurts alot! i cant really walk! i prevent my self from getting MC cause my OC wanted to send me for recourse... and NO i dun want... am actually pretty worried cause i cannot take PDT.... for the fact tat i am soo into marshall arts, but am light duty so they dun allow me to participate EVEN if i insist.

i seriously wanted to do my best in SPF but suddenly all my sickness is back, hyperventilate la, rashes la adominal cramp la.... and now suspect of livercancer... wat the hell... i did told my OC abt it but it seems that she doesnt care and she think tat i'm like chao keng (ayam sakit). its not like as if i want this to happen... but overall my oc is good la.. very motherly....

anyway i gotta go now.. my back is like killing me.. cant really seat on the chair for so long... cant really stand and walk.... so troublesome rite.... i wud rather seat on a wheelchair siark.. gtg..

signing off
AyiE....

During run, police trainee collapses, then dies

2008-05-16T19:55:00.000+08:00

A POLICE trainee died yesterday,
two days after he collapsed during
an Individual Physical Proficiency
Test (IPPT) at the Home Team
Academy.
Trainee Special Constable (TSC)
Roslan Bin Saharo, 19, was among a
group of 120 of trainees who reported
for their IPPT at 6am on Tuesday,
the police said in a statement yesterday.
He stumbled and fell shortly
after he started the 2.4km run at
7.30am. He was given prompt medical
attention and was taken by ambulance
to the National University
Hospital, but he died yesterday.
The Jurong Police Division is investigating
TSC Roslan’s death.
Commander, Training Command,
Deputy Assistant Commissioner
Loy Chye Meng, expressed
his condolences to the family.
“I am saddened by the loss of
such a young officer. Our hearts go out
to the bereaved. The police will render
support and assistance in every
way to TSC Roslan’s family,” he said.
In December 2005, Army Lance
Corporal Ho Wah Yeng, 35, died
shortly after he completed his remedial
fitness training programme
in Maju Camp. The programme is
for operationally-ready National Servicemen
who have failed their IPPT.
In 2003, Inspector Ronnie See,
a 40-year-old Central Narcotics Bureau
officer, died after the 2.4km
run of the IPPT. Earlier that year,
Recruit Andrew Chew Heng Huat,
20, a full-time National Servicemen,
died in Pulau Tekong during the
2.4km run.

Favourite Quote that have been sent by Ryan....

2008-05-02T10:30:00.002+08:00

"At times, doing something that may seem or sound not right is okay, but only for good intensions. Such as, telling white lies to someone but for his own good. 'Hypocrisy on grounds of goodwill is acceptable by god'. Why? Because, unlike human, he can see everything and read everyone's minds and actions. Often,mankind judge thru what we see on the surface only. So whatever kindness you do, its okay if some may doubt you. believe that you have a believer, Believe in god, believe in allah swt."

Ryan....

2008-05-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

OK, labourday, was bored and am also having fever! wont be booking in camp.... i really didnt expect to spend my labour day alone at home! haix... niway instead of wasting time, i decided to design a logo for my squad! hahaz... actually we are making our squad shirt... soo... yea, i decide to design the logo and the img to be print at the back of the shirt... wat do u guys think? nt nice rite?

Squad 8 Logo....

The back pic for the shirt....

signing off
AyiE

New Phone, New No.

2008-04-21T19:18:00.003+08:00

Ok! latest news! for those of u bitches who have been trying to contact me by my old no. 92394060, then by now, u shud have realised that, the no. is no longer in use... yea indeed.. i've changed my no. Too bad i cant put it on the blog cause some unwanted ppl might contact me! hahaz....

anyway i bought a new phone.. and dang.. i'm loving it.... i've been wanting to ger a PDA kinda phone... and i got it! the new Samsung F700. It looks like iPhone or the LG phone tat my sis is having... its totally awesome... here's a pic of it...

The Samsung F700 is a new feature-laden handset that some analysts are saying will pose competition to the Apple iPhone. Much like the iPhone, the F700 features a new Flash user interface and a large touch screen. Most of the other features on the F700 are more advanced than Apple's offering however.

Features of the Ultra Smart F700 include:

GSM 900/1800/1900 plus 7.2 megabit HSPDA
5.0 megapixel camera
Slide out QWERTY keyboard
Bluetooth
microSD
2.78" touch screen with VibeTonz for tactile feedback

Anyway, i am still sick! urgh! got mc...

gtg
signing off
AyiE

Marksman!!!

2008-04-19T15:23:00.003+08:00

"Detail, watch your front."
"Fire 5 rounds in 12 seconds"...

and so i did... and guess wat, when frame 6 is done, i got a MARKSMAN! that is the most happiest day (in ns) for me! really.. cause i didnt expect to get a marksman... i thought worse come to worst i only get 1st class... but NAH... marksman la seyy!

well if you were to ask me, is it that difficult to shoot... i can tell you.... NOPE... it's not... you can master your shooting if u get the techniq right (mcm paham la aku)...

well the NPCC is using S&W .22 Revolver, it is much more stable then the Taures model 85 .38 caliber revolver (the one that we are using). we ask our officer why the NPCC is using such revolver... and this is the reply "Dorang semuer budak belum bahlil" (They are not mature) LOL.......

Anyway, went to maxwell again... meet up with friends/family... reallly happy to meet them all but sumone MUST make my mood down... wth right... but still everything is ok... enjoy my self specially when talking to kak lin.. HAHAH.. kekek ar member...

anyway i gtg
signing off
AyiE

PREP COURSE OUT!

2008-04-11T20:11:00.001+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4... Left.. right... left.... 4, 3, 2, 1.... Prep Course Bye Bye.... wow.... time fly real fast, finally... i'm done with prep course and i already get my official Field instructor, F.I Sufyan... he's cool! really.. hahaz, friendly kinda person... 08, compui... wth.... anyway am nw focussing on my IPPT... dang, i cant do the standing board jump.... 198 only!!!! passing distance is like 216 la! aiyo! but lucky i can do pull up! i can do 9 babe! weeeeeeee~ tats a big improvement am telling ya! hahahz... well i guess tats all for now.. i'll keep u update soon...

signing off
AyiE

2008-03-27T09:46:00.006+08:00

Damn, i'm not sure what's wrong with my body... i've been having a heavy headache and my body is feeling freaking weak.... well the reason why i update this blog is because i'm on mc! if not, i would be at camp doing training.... anyway, i'll be booking in later at night...... well since i have the opportunity to update me blog... i would love to share some pics.... :) anyway i can't believe i'm saying this but i LOVE and ENJOY ns life.... :) EXCEPT for the food la.. cause it's really SUX to the core.....

This is where i sleep every night, My bed and my locker

My barrack Mate: Fish, Haiqal and Me....

Fish and Shah... (Shah acting cute)

This is my barrack, where 10 of us sleep! my bed is 2nd last from the window!

and this is my Coy Blk 13, it looks like those american jail cell/house... LOL..

Well that's all for now

Sigjing off
AyiE

2008-03-23T15:03:00.002+08:00

Ok... hahahaz... here's my LATEST image... the GI hairstyle... seriously, i think i look better with this hair style... think am gonna keep it short! hehehe... well am booking in soon... gtg..

signing off
AyiE

2008-03-21T10:13:00.002+08:00

Wooot, after 10 days of HELL.... am back la seyy!! GOSH who da hell say POLICE FORCE is SLACK!!!! darn, the training for PREP course is TORTURING! but seriously, overall.... it's FUN la! hehehe... enjoy my stayed there... and i dunno why, i am chosen to be the squad leader.... it's like WTH la... and erm.... i'm nt really allow to complain cause its against the law...and the food there.... is TASTELESSS! hahahz.... niway the training was rather tough till i have to be admit to hospital due to hyperventilate..... and god know why, when i reach home, i keep hearing command, my barrack mate nonsence and also the marching timing "Left right left".... gosh cant get it out of my head.... lol... well seriously, i 'm feeling soooooo lethargic nw.... gtg and rest...

signing off
AyiE

2008-03-10T12:05:00.002+08:00

AyiE is currently serving his National Service as a Police Officer at the Home Team Academy. Therefore he wont be doing any update till further notice.

Wish him all the best!

Signing off
i-Blog co owner.

2008-03-09T16:22:00.003+08:00

As we grow older, we all have to do some reflections, this is the only time where you can really learn from your mistake and try not to repeat it. I've done a lot of mistakes and also i have done a lot reflections. i tried to change but people will only recognise u and also always brag the old you. How can sumone change when the person they thought that can support them, always brag about the past. The song that i have put on my blog goes to EVERYONE whom i have make mistakes with and i am really really sorry for the things that i have done.....

i would like to say SORRY to...
Azhari - For playing with your feeling
Asyraf - For calling you bitch and stuff behind your back when i'm still with syzwi
Faleq - For leaking some of your video
Ady - For leaking your preferences to the campers
Kido - For not upholding my promises
Syzwi - For making you hated me so much
Abg firdaus - For not paying you the money that you always loan me when i'm in trouble, i'll pay you one day...
Abg Fairuz - For not upholding promise to go gym with you
Shizari - For hating you due to last time incident
Faizal_gay - For bubble you last time
To sham and remy - For pissing off with you guys the other day at far east plaza
fazlan - for hating you

......

There's more actually but those who i've not mention, if you think that i have done mistakes with you, i am truely sorry... Hope you can accept my apology but if u cant, it will be shame on me...

Signing off
AyiE

2008-03-07T00:29:00.003+08:00

Urgh! 4 more days!!!! and i have yet to pack my bag! urgh!

signing off
AyiE

2008-03-06T07:16:00.003+08:00

Gosh, i am counting down for my ns dont i? yea! 5 more days to NS la sey!!! Sundel, seram siark! hahaz, anyway, i was sooo damn curious on how i look like during ns, with my GI jo hair style, so i decided to "Adobe" my self and came with this UGLY pic of me...
GOSH i really look UGLY siark when i'm in my NS haircut!!! EEEEEEWWWWW... i'm disgusted! well, erm nw u guys have some idea on how i look like, so i guess u might be having a second thought on going out with me right? LOL... but seriously i was like ROFL when seeing the out come la... lol...

K la... gonna stop here...

signing off
AyiE

2008-03-05T04:46:00.003+08:00

Yea indeed, 6more freaking days and i will be serving the Singapore Police Force as my National Service... well, i can say that i am really looking forward for it BUT at the same time, my freedom will be burn! i knw for the first few weeks it's gonna be a hell for me, but i will go through all this as a group, so there's shouldnt be any problem... so guys, wish me all the best aite!

AyiE will be serving his National Service as a Police Officer under the Singapore Police Force on 11 March 2008 at 0800hrs. He will report at the Home Team Academy for his enlistment.....

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-25T13:12:00.003+08:00

The singapore Airshow was held at the Changin Exhibition Center from the 19 to the 24th of February 2008. iBlog went there to check on the RSAF Black Knight Display team and it was AWESOME! their performance is equal to the red arrows! fantastic!

Singapore Airshow is Asia's largest aerospace and defence event, is a joint venture between the Civil Aviation Authority of Singapore and the Defence Science & Technology Agency. It is one of the top three air shows in the world and serves as a global marketplace and networking platform for the military and civil aviation community.

An airshow's success depends on more than just a name. It depends on the location, the people who manage it and their experience in running successful airshows. Singapore has played host to Asia’s largest airshow for 26 years. And that experience is going to help us keep doing just that. That is why you can expect to be awed by the Singapore Airshow 2008...

Cool Huh... i've been to 5 airshow all together and am looking forward for the aerospace hub in future by 2010....

2004 Asian Aerospace
2005 Royal Australian Airshow
2006 Asian Aerospace
2007 Langkawi International Marinetime Aerospace (LIMA)
2008 Singapore Airshow...

wonder wat install for me in the future! cool

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-19T20:03:00.007+08:00

We're GOING to the ZOO,
We're GOING to the ZOO....

Yeap, indeed, we did go to ZOO just now... Well erm yea i went to the ZOO with ma own sister,

i knw, of all places right? but oh well i did enjoy my trip to the ZOO today and guess wat, it's freaking tiring la... lol...

it not like everyday you can see wild animal wonder around our street, so why not go to the ZOO and see animal such as Penguin, Polar BEAR, Tigers, Lion and many more! its a good place to go actually... and it is a good place to go with your love one... seriously.. i want my future bf to bring me jln2 to the zoo! :D

I really thought tat i am bigger then the POLAR BEAR... but... i was wrong....

Polar bear is twice as tall as me!!! anyway there are 2 polar bear in our ZOO, Inuka and sheba, they are Mother and son... COOL... and oh yea! we saw a Rare but endangered bird species...
This is the DILACALTU Bird... only can be seen in Singapore Zoo... NOT even JURONG birdpark! so hurry visit ZOO today to witness this Rare MAN EATING bird.. LOL...

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-17T03:49:00.002+08:00

Photos tat have been taken by Sham's camera during valentine's day out....

2008-02-16T14:48:00.004+08:00

Many of us here celebrate Valentine without even knowing why or how do Valentine's Day come about, iBlog will bring u back to 14th February 270A.D to know about why do people celebrate valentine and why it's a special day.....

HISTORY OF SAINTS VALENTINE'S DAY
Valentine's Day started in the time of the Roman Empire. In ancient Rome, February 14th was a holiday to honour Juno. Juno was the Queen of the Roman Gods and Goddesses. The Romans also knew her as the Goddess of women and marriage. The following day, February 15th, began the Feast of Lupercalia.

The lives of young boys and girls were strictly separate. However, one of the customs of the young people was name drawing. On the eve of the festival of Lupercalia the names of Roman girls were written on slips of paper and placed into jars. Each young man would draw a girl's name from the jar and would then be partners for the duration of the festival with the girl whom he chose. Sometimes the pairing of the children lasted an entire year, and often, they would fall in love and would later marry.

Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off. He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honour of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed.

The pastors of the early Christian Church in Rome endeavoured to do away with the pagan element in these feasts by substituting the names of saints for those of maidens. And as the Lupercalia began about the middle of February, the pastors appear to have chosen Saint Valentine's Day for the celebration of this new feaSt. So it seems that the custom of young men choosing maidens for valentines, or saints as patrons for the coming year, arose in this way....

ST. VALENTINE'S STORY...
Let me introduce myself. My name is Valentine. I lived in Rome during the third century. That was long, long ago! At that time, Rome was ruled by an emperor named Claudius. I didn't like Emperor Claudius, and I wasn't the only one! A lot of people shared my feelings.

Claudius wanted to have a big army. He expected men to volunteer to join. Many men just did not want to fight in wars. They did not want to leave their wives and families. As you might have guessed, not many men signed up. This made Claudius furious. So what happened? He had a crazy idea. He thought that if men were not married, they would not mind joining the army. So Claudius decided not to allow any more marriages. Young people thought his new law was cruel. I thought it was preposterous! I certainly wasn't going to support that law!

Did I mention that I was a priest? One of my favourite activities was to marry couples. Even after Emperor Claudius passed his law, I kept on performing marriage ceremonies -- secretly, of course. It was really quite exciting. Imagine a small candlelit room with only the bride and groom and myself. We would whisper the words of the ceremony, listening all the while for the steps of soldiers.

One night, we did hear footsteps. It was scary! Thank goodness the couple I was marrying escaped in time. I was caught. (Not quite as light on my feet as I used to be, I guess.) I was thrown in jail and told that my punishment was death.

I tried to stay cheerful. And do you know what? Wonderful things happened. Many young people came to the jail to visit me. They threw flowers and notes up to my window. They wanted me to know that they, too, believed in love.

One of these young people was the daughter of the prison guard. Her father allowed her to visit me in the cell. Sometimes we would sit and talk for hours. She helped me to keep my spirits up. She agreed that I did the right thing by ignoring the Emperor and going ahead with the secret marriages. On the day I was to die, I left my friend a little note thanking her for her friendship and loyalty. I signed it, "Love from your Valentine."

I believe that note started the custom of exchanging love messages on Valentine's Day. It was written on the day I died, February 14, 269 A.D. Now, every year on this day, people remember. But most importantly, they think about love and friendship. And when they think of Emperor Claudius, they remember how he tried to stand in the way of love, and they laugh -- because they know that love can't be beaten!...

Many people or youngster nowadays thought that valentine's day are only mend to celebrate with your love one... (eg. your bf/gf). But for the fact that valentine's day is a day to celebrate with people who you appreciate the most and love the most..(eg. Family, Friends and relative)...

Now the question is.... How did you celebrate YOUR valentine's day?
My valentine's date for this year is REMY and SHAM! weee! i had a lot of fun going out /hanging out with them.. Though sham have to work on that day, after catching up movie "Jumper" with remy we went to sham Mac and accompany him till the closing time.... SINCE he's the manager there, all McD meal was on him! FOC la seyy! hahaz... i had great time spending with them... well wat friends are for... lol.. anyway i got to go... happy Valentine's guys!

Signing Off
AyiE...

FABULOUS RED @ POWER HOUSE!

2008-02-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

for the fact that i only slept for 3hours, and feeling cranky at times, and still having a hang over.... i DID enjoy my day today!!! YEAP!

Today supposingly me, remy and sham planned to go for brunch (Breakfast and Lunch) it's sad that faz is not with us though, But end up, we had a late lunch instead of brunch.... hmmmm....

Well as most of us know, i HATE to wait.. LOL.. but then today, i have to wait for remy and sham to reach changi for 1hour!!! nasib baik aku bersabar!

as promised, we will be meeting ATM near bugerking at 1pm, but end up i have to wait for them till 2pm... tak bertuah tu?? lol...

once they reached, we go to and had our lunch there,

This is wat we had....
For Me, i had Bake Seafood Rice.... Delicious...

For Remy he had, Baked Seafood Pasta Mornay

For sham, since he dunno wat else to choose, he chose to buy Fish N Chip.

The price is quite reasonable too and also i pity my dear remy.. lol.. he gotta eat fast cause his work start @ 3pm....

after all the heavy lunch, me and sham went out to town jalan like no other business... wont type the detail here though, reason being, LAZY... lol... well i just came back and i'll be sleeping soon i guess... provided if i can sleep
lol

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-11T05:04:00.001+08:00

Tonight is yet another Fabulous Night @ Fabulous Sunday! it was hosted at a brand new site, Boiler St james Power House with some 3D Visualisation! and what cooler then 3D visualisation? the ROTATING dance floor! yea it literally ROTATE 360 degree! the entrance fee was $15 which inclusive of 1 drinks! quite reasonable price plus i get a Fabulous 3D Glasses and a fortune cookie?? hahaz yeap.. tat's what i get... well went there with Sham and met faz and hafiz there... after that met up with joehan and his friend... also met this cute guy name COCO... hahaz.... Anyway Fabulous RED is coming and this will be the LAST time i'm gonna club till my bdae or next year?? lol... yea... so JOIN me and my friends clubbing all night long at st james powerhouse Fabulous red... keep note, Dress code is RED.... :D entry fee $15!!!

::Fabulous Red::
17th Feb 2008 (Sunday) Doors Open @ 10pm
Dress code: ReD....

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

In today iBloG topic, we're gonna talk about the FACT sheet of kissing, AS all of us should have known that, kissing are mend and reserve for the love one, (you wont be going around kissing other people unless ur drunk or simply a nutcase!).

Kissing the right person can definitely give a sense of wellbeing, but theories abound as to why this might be. Let us see what anthropologist and author Dr Stephen Juan of the University of Sydney says about kissing.

In passionate kisses, where there is a "Wow" factor, the body responds with an adrenaline rush, releasing the feel good chemicals dopamine and phenylethylamine in the brain. The adrenaline speeds the heart rate up, giving that pounding feeling and may cause the body to become sweaty or the cheeks to flush. Women may release oxytocin, a hormone needed for female orgasm. A kiss may also trigger the release of endorphins which stimulate the immune system, adding weight to the argument that people who are in love are generally healthier than those who are not.

The above physical reactions depend, of course, on the emotion behind the kiss. We have to feel attracted to someone, otherwise the kiss will leave us cold. If your senses are ignited by someone and you like the sight, sound and smell of them, then your body is likely to spark a chemical reaction.

Non passionate kisses can, however, make us feel good for other reasons. A baby will enjoy the ticklish sensations and funny sounds of a kiss by someone it loves. A kiss from a close friend or family member will make us feel good as we see it as a sign of love and affection from someone we love. The reason for that sense of well-being is therefore not so much biological, as psychological.

Why Kiss?
There are many different theories on why we kiss. One is that it relates to times when mothers used to wean their children by chewing their food for them and then passing it into their mouths. Others say it is linked to comforting memories of breastfeeding, or that it is simply learned behaviour picked up from images we see in film, TV and magazines. Several experts argue that kissing
is linked to our sense of smell, which can play a major part in physical attraction.

Certainly, the Eskimos' habit of rubbing noses could stem from a desire to get close enough to smell each other's pheromones. North American Indians had a lips to cheek kiss in which no motion or sound was made. In India, there were references in the Karma Sutra to lip-sucking, when the male would suck the female's upper lip and she his lower. There was a period when the "double butterfly" kiss, or eyelash to cheek kiss, was popular.

The romantic, passionate lip kiss is generally thought to originate with the early Greeks and Romans. In fact, when the Europeans first went to the Far East in the 16th century, the Chinese and Japanese were reportedly shocked, horrified and at times amused by the action. Dr Juan puts the recent trend for social kissing in Australia down to our unique blend of different cultures and their habits. The social kiss on the cheek is, he says, a greeting rather than a sign of affection.

While there may be no simple explanation for kissing, it looks as though this universally popular act is with us to stay....

and here are some of the FACT about kissing, adapted from (Kissingnet.com)

1. The act of kissing puts 29 facial muscles in motion. In other words, kissing is an effective exercise to tighten those facial muscles and prevent baggy cheeks.

2. Kissers exchange saliva containing various substances, like proteins and antigens. These can give a boost to the production of antibodies and oost your immune system.

3. Two-thirds of people keep their eyes closed while kissing. The rest stare wide-eyed in enjoyment at the emotions on their partner’s faces.

4. An average American woman will kiss 80 men before she gets married.

5. A quick romantic kiss will burn about 2-3 calories, whereas an open-mouth french kiss with tongue-tongue contact will shed much more.

6. The sensitivity ( number of nerve endings per unit area of skin ) of the lips is 200 times higher than that of the fingers.

7. Statistically, men who kiss their wives goodbye before going to work live five years longer than those who just slam the door.

8. Smooching passionately for 90 seconds will elevate blood pressure and cause the pulse rate to go racing, equivalent of a short jog.

9. In France, a french kiss is known as a â€œjoining of soulsâ€ in France. Both the lips and the tongues have their roles.

10. Contrary to a popular belief, the Eskimos do not merely rub their noses against each other in a greeting display of love and affection. They also enjoy the scent of each other by holding their nose against the other’s cheek.

11. Kissing in public is usually frowned upon in Japan. A typical Japanese kiss is reserved and secretive, where the two kissing are supposed to maintain a certain distance before they bow their heads forwards and kiss each other on the lips for no more than a second.

12. Kissing can produce endorphins ( much like chocolate does ) that are 200 times more powerful than morphine, which can cause the sensation of euphoria and bliss.

13. The after-effects of kissing include inducing reduced pulse and blood pressure, and a sense of relaxation.

14. An average person spends two weeks of his life kissing.

15. A one minute french kiss can help burn 26 calories.

16. Every other person on the planet has his or her first french kiss before reaching the age of 14.

So now you knw all the fact about kissing! so reserve your kiss for someone whom u love the most!!

Signing off
AyiE

2008-02-09T11:09:00.000+08:00

Wow... my blog have been hit by 452 readers within a month! hahaz, suprise! indeed i am! gonna be the next issacritz.blogspot.com! hehe sry eh issac! wakakazz... Anyway! i just realised that am going NS within a month or so! well... honestly, i am really looking forward to it.. but at the same time, am gonna miss all my Clubbing buddies, my close friends, My adk and abg also gonna miss sleeping on my bed! Well for sure am gonna have a home sick! lol.. but nvm... its only a few months of confinement.. have to look on the bright side! :D

and Oh! Valentine day is coming! nah i dun really fancy or celebrate valentine.. to think again, i dun even celebrate my birth day! wakakaaz

but still... who will be my valentine??? hehehe....

anyway got to go now...
Signing off
AyiE...

ps... ANY GOING FABULOUS RED ON 17 FEB!!!! ABOVE 18 ONLY!

2008-02-08T04:41:00.000+08:00

SPOILED
[x]YOU OWN EITHER A MP3 PLAYER OR IPOD!
[x]YOU HAVE YOUR OWN ROOM!
[x]YOUR THE YOUNGEST IN YOUR FAMILY!
[x]YOU SHOP FOR YOUR OWN CLOTHES!
[x]YOUR ABLE TO DATE!
[ ]YOU HAVE A TV IN YOUR ROOM
[ ]YOU HAVE A UNLIMITED TEXTING
[x]YOU GET ALLOWANCE!
[ ]YOU HAVE TO GET SOMETHIN EVERTIME
YOU GO SHOPPING!
[ ]YOU DON'T HAVE ANY CHORES/JOBS TO
DO!

TOTAL=6
MULTIPLY BY 10=YOUR PERCENT
PERCENT=60%
AyiE is 60% SPOILED

BITCH
[ ]YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND!
[x]YOU HAVE ENEMIES!
[x]YOU HATE SOME /ALL OF YOUR TEACHERS!
[x]YOU BROKE SOMEONES HEART BEFORE!
[x]YOU SOMETIMES BITCH/SNAP AT YOUR
FAMILY!(PARENTS, SISTER,
BROTHERS,ETC..)
[x]YOU HAVE YOUR OWN GANG/ GROUP OF
FRIENDS!
[x]YOU ADDRESS YOUR FRIENDS BITCH
[x]YOU MOSTLY CHAT IN CLASS!
[x]YOU HAVE OVER $200 DOLLARS SO FAR!
[ ]YOU DON'T WASH YOUR OWN LAUNDRY!

TOTAL=8
MULTIPLY BY 10=YOUR PERCENT
PERCENT=80%
AyiE is 80% Bitch

GANGSTER
[ ]YOU WORE NOTHING AT HOME.
[ ]YOU SOMETIMES WEAR STRAPS, OR STRAP
LESS SHIRTS
[x]YOU HAVE HOTT SHOES THAT PEOPLE
ADMIRE!
[x]YOU HAVE HOOD/JACkETS!
[ ]YOU OWN A cap/hat !
[x]YOU SOMETIMES SWEAR!
[x]YOU SAY YO/DAWG/KILLAHS/SEXXY/....
[x]YOU LOVE TO CRUISE!
[x]YOU GOING OUT WITH A HOTT GUY/GIRL
[x]YOU GOT TO HAVE ACCESSORIES WHEN YOU
GO PLACES!!!

TOTAL=7
MULTIPLY BY 10=YOUR PERCENT
PERCENT=70%
AyiE is 70% Gangster???? HOW TRUE...

2008-02-06T11:49:00.000+08:00

19 170 58, 23 175 89 or 42 170 92.
Any idea what this no. for? No.. obviously they are not phone no.! if u often use irc or any chat software, you might be familiar with this no. this is what they call statistic.

IRC is a funny place to be in sumtimes, because u can see a lot of people doing silly thing in it... i mean, some ppl ask statistic to knw how old that individual is while others just wanna see if the individual is fat, average or skinny. well here's my statistic : 19 170 58. 19 simply shows tat, obviously my age! while 170 58 stand for my height and weight, bring this to a weight chart, it simply say tat i am acceptable weight, in other word i am average... but if sumone stats is 170 85, its clearly says tat they are over weight.

Nw the funny thing is that.... is Statistic Important?? even if you are only looking for friends? i can gurantee that 90% of average guy will either ignore or block sumone if they find out that the other party is fat or obese.... but why? the question remain for individual to answer... like i say every one have its own preferences.... but usually people with this preferences is stereotype kinda person.... and also.... its kinda funny that peopla also ask statistic even if they are up for phone sex! LOL.... like as if they can see the other party through the phone (unless its a 3g phone sex, i'll understand)

Haiz... we are living in a world full of stereotype people... some even self proclaim that they are not when actually, they are.....

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-06T04:51:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS BORED!!! soooo
i decided to make use of my free time designing some logo.... so far only created 3 logo... 1 is for the FLYNV.NET, another 1 is for Sekilas Radio Fm (Just for the fun of it) and last will be for my blog.... take a look at it... i knw it's sux... lol...

Flynv.net

Sekilas FM... and last but not least..

iBlog 2008 official logo....

signing off..
AyiE...

Ps. if u need me to do some simple logo design, just ask me.. i MIGHT find some free time to do for u....

2008-02-05T09:18:00.000+08:00

Yea, i have been singled for a year plus... well am not too sure if i'm enjoying it.. but what i knw, at times i feel lonely...

What kind of guy i am?
Well...hmm.. i'm not too sure on how to answer this question, but seriously... for what i knw, i am a very talkative guy! i am also sumone who wanna love and beloved kinda person, cause i belive in relationship, it need two hands to clap to make a sound.

What kind of guy am i looking for?
Well... i dun ask MUCH... all i'm looking for is someone who is Loyal, sincere, sumone i can pamper with, nt heavy smoker (prefered non smoker) and someone who are not into sex, so i guess sex preferences is not really that important.

well i guess tat answer to your question if you wanna get to know me... :) and if u really wanna get to knw me... pls dun give me a cold shoulder... its not nice.... :D

signing off
AyiE

2008-02-03T06:04:00.000+08:00

Clubbing is FUN, meeting new people, dance to loud music and hang around with friends...Anyway, just came back from PLAY and yea i do enjoy my nite! i didnt really plan to go there but my friend need me to accompany him.. therefore... i decided to go... the reason why i enjoy is because.. OBVIOUSLY meeting new people and also i met lots of my friends, especially abg joey! he look SEXY!!! lol...

anyway, i was wondering... is sex preferences really THAT important... if it is, does this mean that a bottom cannot be with a bottom? i mean, love is not all about sex rite? or it is? for what i knw, if you really love that someone, it doesnt matter if he is a bottom or a top.. rite? hmmm... if anyone know the answer... pls leave it in the comment... thz

signing off:
AyiE

2008-01-31T23:44:00.000+08:00

No matter how sweet you are, Never ever sweet talk to a person who are still single when you know that you are already attached. You are just transmitting a Wrong signal or even worst, giving hope to the single party.

Giving a wrong signal is the worst thing tat you can ever do. you're just simply cheating on the other party feeling. So Dont attempt to sweet talk when u knw that you're already attached.

anyway, today was indeed a short day for me, woke up around 1.15pm, rushed down to North View so tat i can test the aircraft for tmr... and then clean up the range and head back home... reach home around 6+, use the comp, watch some porn and then nw am on my bed typing out this post... short day indeed...hehe....

and finally i keep in touch with huzainie!! gosh i mish him LOADS! going out with him soon! dang, am looking forward! seriously! lol...

and oh ya! sumone just confronted me that am dirty! i mean in religious way... doesnt mean am gay i cant put my feet at the place of worship! i am a human too u knw and also i do believe in god and i do practice islam... wat RIGHTS do u have to say tat i am dirty??? will u be the one who judge me if i go to heaven or hell?? will u be the one who weight my sins, do u knw how much sins i carry?? NO! ur not! its between me and god.... so to those people who always say being gay is a sins and stuff, this is wat am gonna say to you.... Buzz off.... u dun have the right to judge me! and only god knws my sins and he is the only one who will judge me!

anyway... am feeling soooo shag... sry.. lethargic... lol....sleeping soon...i hope...

signing off
AyiE

2008-01-30T04:08:00.000+08:00

Hi
intro?
seek?
flex? top? btm?

Sounds familiar?

This are the common message you will get if you are chatting on the famous IRC! indeed, some people are still using IRC to get socialised, the example of some people is me!

in the late 1990, yes... IRC was indeed a famous chat software that enable people with internet access to communicate.... Back then, MSN messenger like wat we are using nowadays wasnt event created. IRC stand for Internet Relay Chat. Unlike MSN or Yahoo messenger, u will be only chatting with the people who you knw cause u will be ask to add the individual email address BUT not with IRC. For those of you who have been chatting on alamak.com, it is actually the same except tat for alamak, you have to go to the website to chat. With IRC, u can simply chat by opening up the software. Its tat simple, No need for you to enter the website name, wait for it to reload/refresh and stuff... you just key in your nick name and connect to a server (Singapore server is galaxy.net) and voila, your online.

Like alamak, IRC have various channel... as for me, i always go for a gay channel. They are #sgboy or #gam. But for those who are str8 people, this are some of the famous channel that people would normally go (i do go to this channel fyi) #Melayu #melayu20+ #singaporeteen and #singaporechat.

ANYWAY, the purpose of blogging today is NOT about introducing on IRC but is about HOW ppl intro or start conversation with you...

Like what i wrote in the beginning, the common way people will address you on irc is (Hi, intro, seek, flex top btm?)[On Typical Gay chn tat is :D] . To me, its kinda rude to start up by asking Personal details at first chat. i wud prefer people who literally chat and ask details later. Example, Hey dude wassup, am bored mind chatting for awhile... hmm you have any idea where to get a cheap game for PSP? anyway Jeff here, 19 this year.. seeking friends cause life is bored... what about ya?.....

sumhow i feel welcome when people start conversation like the example stated above. Cause its simply show tat they are interested in chatting with you, UNLESS what they seek is a very str8 forward things. example SEX, which is common in gay channel..Here are some example then....

[Gordi] Hi.
[AyiEmly] Hey Wassup.
[Gordi] Intro?
[AyiEmly] Sure, y not... 19 170 58mly here.. u?
[Gordi] 21 175 60 chn.... where u stay? seek?
[AyiEmly] hmmm... cck here, west area... friends or more... :D
[Gordi] Oh, i seek fun.. u top flex or btm?

=========================

Yea there you go.. .an example of str8forward ppl who just enter the chat room cause they are horny...

Although singapore is a multi racial country and so much for Racial Harmony, there are still racism people here... No offence to any races or wat but Most chinese chatters prefered to chat with the same race. What i call them is HOMORACEST. and some, might be rude. When they start finding out tat the chatters are mly or other race, example (Intro: 19 170 58 MLY) they will simply IGNORE you... and sum would also say either, Sry not into malay or sry seek chn only. How do u feel when u read tat? first word will appear in your mind will be RACIST!. LOL.... i just dun understand, is like, u must be this race to be my friend... stupid as it sound but its happening on irc... and tat apply to those who seek friends/ltr or sex...

If you are talking about friends/chat or ltr, i dun see the need to have it with the same race, cause for this category everyone is the same. Some ppl say "its just preferences" but i say its bullshit. UNLESS your talking about sex which i agree tat there is preferences... but the only preferences is tat most chn or non malay people is uncut and the malay people is cut (if u knw what i mean) other then that, every thing is the same! dun u think so???

so yea... anyway the word HOMORACEST doesnt even exist in dictionary.. lol.. it just the word i describe sumone who interested in the same race, like HOMOSEXUAL, sumone who interested in the same sex.

anyway i just realised its a bloody long post.. hahaz guess have to stop here.... cya

signing off
AyiE